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Take care everyone.
My pluses for the year......
This year has certainly been thee single most eventful year of my life.
January:
1. New Years with Stephanie. Good times.
Feburary:
1. Going to Las Vegas.
2. Stealing a car and going to Montana to snagg some of the hotest Native Ballers around AND not getting caught.
March:
1. Moving back to DC from Bumphuck, Idaho. (Back to the action)
2. My 23 B-Day. (All by myself but made the best of it)
April:
1. Going to see Les Miserables on Broadway. (Lifelong dream)
2. Finding myself. (I did some awesome life-changing trainings)
3. Finding out my sister was prego (Again!)
May:
1. Finally after three years, getting together with the hotest/sexiest/yummiest guy I knew.
2. Having the best long-distance relationship ever!
June:
1. Going to visit Buffalo, NY and subsequently breaking it off with aforementioned because he's...
2. My sister getting married to the man of her dreams.
3. Being the maid-of-honor.
4. My ex-boyfriend flying out here from Hawaii to play the Native American Flute @ my sisters wedding at the last minute.
5. Me taking my sister to a (female) strip club for the first time. (Hillarious!)
July:
1. My Nephew turning 4. (He's the coolest kat I know!)
August:
1. My sister turnging 22.
2. Me finishing my training. (the craziest thing I've ever done in my life)
3. Me getting a Job. (After my 2 year hiadus)
September:
1. My niece Amber being born. (Awe!)
2. My ex-boyfriend's parents comming to "visit" me. (trying to convice me to seduce him....bwahahahaha)
3. My best friend Benji moving back to DC
October:
1. Seeing my favorite band Indigenous and meeting sexy ass Mato!
November:
1. My Roacha moving to DC. (finally!)
2. Having a dinner @ my apt. with ALL my family.
December:
1. Going to Paris. (Lifelong dream)
2. Seeing the Arc de Triomphe (Lifelong dream)
3. Seeing the greatest movie of all time (LOTR)
4. Having a bomb ass time with my ex Ryan (Go figure)
5. Spending New Years with the people I love.
That is all. Peace and Happy New Year.
Wednesday, December 31
Tuesday, December 30
New Year's Resolutions
1. Learn to become the kick-ass skier I know I really am.
2. Learn to become the kick-ass guitar player I know I really am.
3. Learn to become the bad-ass golfer I know I really am.
4. Actually utilize my Gym membership.
5. Spend more time with my little brothers.
6. Stay single for an entire year. (NO MORE PRETTY BOYS!!!!)
7. Appriciate myself more the my accomplishments.
8. Earn at least 12 credits this year. (ha ha ha)
9. Telling all the co-dependants in my life to flick off and do it yourself once in a while.
10. Smoke only 185 days this year instead of all 365.
11. Stop smokin' da crack pipe.
12. Not forget anyone's birthday.
13. Fly myself to Hawaii for my Birthday.
14. Get my milkshake to bring all the boys to the yard.
15. Not give a damn about what the price of rice in china is.
Yeah....that'll do it for me.
2. Learn to become the kick-ass guitar player I know I really am.
3. Learn to become the bad-ass golfer I know I really am.
4. Actually utilize my Gym membership.
5. Spend more time with my little brothers.
6. Stay single for an entire year. (NO MORE PRETTY BOYS!!!!)
7. Appriciate myself more the my accomplishments.
8. Earn at least 12 credits this year. (ha ha ha)
9. Telling all the co-dependants in my life to flick off and do it yourself once in a while.
10. Smoke only 185 days this year instead of all 365.
11. Stop smokin' da crack pipe.
12. Not forget anyone's birthday.
13. Fly myself to Hawaii for my Birthday.
14. Get my milkshake to bring all the boys to the yard.
15. Not give a damn about what the price of rice in china is.
Yeah....that'll do it for me.
Friday, December 26
The aftermath...
Another day. Christmas was awesome. I loved it from head to toe. I woke up to my nephew staring me straight in the eyes and saying "Are you awake yet, Auntie?" "There's presents you know" (He's four and it's his first real "I'm excited about Christmas" year). Plus, it was my niece "Amba's" first so it was real special for all of us. I got got a lot of things that I wanted and everything else I really didn't want. Meaning everything I got is what I really wanted. (Except for the Hello Kitty TV) I got this really great Art book call Drawing from the Right side of the Brain. It's really awesome and I can wait to start tapping into my creativity. Anyways. I got a new hat (I love hats), a Tar-gei gift card. (I love target), My sister broke down and got me those black silk cargos I always hinted about, I got a necklace, some Sage/cedar/sweetgrass body balm, for my excema, Some hello kitty toe socks, (VERY AWESOME!), The donation made in my name to the Indian center in Lawrence, (My favorite gift of all). And the joi of seeing my nephew's face when he saw the golf clubs Santa (Me) got him. (Four is old enough right?) Anyhow.
Then we went home and unbuttoned our top buttons. I began my art book and spent the next 3 hours reading. Took a nap and then drug Roach out to Heaven and had an okay time. She met a really kool kat and I ran into one of my old "friends". It was nice to catch up. Anyhow. It was a great night. Later tators. Tonight me and Roach and Kina and her friend Lindsey (I think) are heading to VIP's . Hopefully, there will be a juicier story. Take care y'all. Peace.
Then we went home and unbuttoned our top buttons. I began my art book and spent the next 3 hours reading. Took a nap and then drug Roach out to Heaven and had an okay time. She met a really kool kat and I ran into one of my old "friends". It was nice to catch up. Anyhow. It was a great night. Later tators. Tonight me and Roach and Kina and her friend Lindsey (I think) are heading to VIP's . Hopefully, there will be a juicier story. Take care y'all. Peace.
Thursday, December 25
Wednesday, December 24
Brainteaser of the Dei.
Click here to begin!
The rules to the game are written below as well as the link to where the game is located...just hit the bigger circular button and it takes you to the game Japanese IQ Test ... Apparently this is an IQ test given to employees in Japan. > >Everybody has to cross the river. The following rules apply:
http://smallcampus.net/html/maths_g...riverIQGame.swf
* Only 2 persons on the raft at a time
* The father can not stay with any of the daughters without their mother's presence
* The mother can not stay with any of the sons without their father's presence
* The thief ( striped shirt) can not stay alone with any family member
* Only the Father, the Mother and the Policeman know how to operate the raft
* To move the people click on them.
* To move the raft click on the red balls.....
Result: if you succeed in: 4 minutes: you are a Genius
6 minutes: You are exceptionally intelligent
10 minutes:You are very intelligent
20 minutes:You are average
25 minutes: You are a bit slow
30 minutes or more: You are terrible
And no I don't know the answer so don't ask. Have funny and Merry Christmas!
The rules to the game are written below as well as the link to where the game is located...just hit the bigger circular button and it takes you to the game Japanese IQ Test ... Apparently this is an IQ test given to employees in Japan. > >Everybody has to cross the river. The following rules apply:
http://smallcampus.net/html/maths_g...riverIQGame.swf
* Only 2 persons on the raft at a time
* The father can not stay with any of the daughters without their mother's presence
* The mother can not stay with any of the sons without their father's presence
* The thief ( striped shirt) can not stay alone with any family member
* Only the Father, the Mother and the Policeman know how to operate the raft
* To move the people click on them.
* To move the raft click on the red balls.....
Result: if you succeed in: 4 minutes: you are a Genius
6 minutes: You are exceptionally intelligent
10 minutes:You are very intelligent
20 minutes:You are average
25 minutes: You are a bit slow
30 minutes or more: You are terrible
And no I don't know the answer so don't ask. Have funny and Merry Christmas!
Tuesday, December 23
Early x-mas gift
Network for Good :: Your Giving Card Awe my dad made a donation in my name to the Indian Center in Lawrence, Kansas. (Where I was born/Yes, I'm a Haskell Rascal) This is the greatest gift ever daddy. Mvto! I love you!
Monday, December 22
My thoughts for the day.
Well another day, another weekend, another month almost gone by. And where have they gone to you might ask? Heck, if I know. Today, I got to do the mail run cause everyone is on vacation and it's very tedious and boring. That's where my day went. My weekend was slightly uneventful considering I made myself nauseous by acting like a infatuated little girl. This occured because I went to see my brother-in-law's cousins band who's leader my sister thought I would die for. (She knows me so well) Anyways, she was right. This guys is awesome. Just my type. (skinny, sexy full lips, dorky, gorgeous, long hair ) Plus, he had the most amazing voice and played all my favorite songs from Creed to Van Morrison. The band was great. Anyways, needless to say I enjoyed myself. Right up until the end when my "best" friend who just so happens to be my ex got all "J" and went nutzo on me. I rather not get in to that but lets just say we're no longer on speaking terms since then. Which for us is a long time and has been a long time comming. Why did I fall in love with possesive "you're mine but I don't want you" types? Answer: I'm sick in the head. Blah. Anyways.
Where did my month go? Well one wonderful trip to Europe (Paris, France/Zurich, Switzerland/Constance, Germany/which the story I'll get to someday soon!). Two wonderful weeks with the Harjo's. Meeting an awesome family from Switzerland. (love you Connie/Jurg/Melanie/Stephanie), My niece getting fatter by the minute, my nephew beginning to read on his own, My fantasically fabulous father finally going on a date. My lovely beautiful splendid Roach moving up here with me, and me loving every minute. Kewl beens. Cheers for December...and it's not even over with yet.
Where did my month go? Well one wonderful trip to Europe (Paris, France/Zurich, Switzerland/Constance, Germany/which the story I'll get to someday soon!). Two wonderful weeks with the Harjo's. Meeting an awesome family from Switzerland. (love you Connie/Jurg/Melanie/Stephanie), My niece getting fatter by the minute, my nephew beginning to read on his own, My fantasically fabulous father finally going on a date. My lovely beautiful splendid Roach moving up here with me, and me loving every minute. Kewl beens. Cheers for December...and it's not even over with yet.
Info of the dei...
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
01 | the dark
02 | the deer lady
03 | my nephew walking too close to the street
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THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
01 | My Numi/My Momishu
02 | Roach
03 | Benji
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THREE THINGS I LOVE:
01 | My family/Friends
02 | being in love
03 | watching the sunset @ the top of the Eiffel Tower.
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THREE THINGS I HATE:
01 | people that aren't clear about what they want
02 | liars
03 | Guys that have egos and don't know it.
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THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
01 | Why there isn't a goodlooking/educated Native males my age.
02 | I usually want men I can't have.
03 | The Washington Redskins don't change their name.
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THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
01 | Hershey's Chocolate Milk
02 | A picture of my Grandparents when they were teenagers
03 | My loja made of wood from the Bahams...that's right it says Bahams.
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THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
01 | trying to stay awake cause I'm bored out of my brain
02 | listening to my immortal by evanescence
03 | Eating my BLT
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THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
01 | be a role model for Native Youth.
02 | get married and have 3 kids
03 | win the lottery
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THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
01 | beat Ryan @ chess/Tekken Tag.
02 | build a kick ass website.
03 | dance like no one is watching
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THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
01 | Teamplayer
02 | Shy at times
03 | Bossy Beeyatch
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THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
01 | play the guitar
02 | have an abortion
03 | go back in time to when I was happy in-love.
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THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
01 | Walela
02 | Indigenous
03 | Southern Boys
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THREE THINGS I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO EVER:
01 | Jewel. (I just can't stand her)
02 | Polka
03 | listen to whatever you want...
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THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
01 | you're not my fren...ever.
02 | Anyhow!
03 | That's so whatever. (Valley girl wannabe)
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THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
01 | Chipotle Burritos!
02 | BLT's
03 | Mamma's Frybread and Stew. (None better)
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THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
01 | French - Fluently
02 | to play the guitar
03 | Be a chess master
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THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
01 | Dr Pepper
02 | Chocolate Milk
03 | Water
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THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
01 | Muppet Show
02 | Mr. Rogers
03 | My little pony
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DESCRIBE YOUR..
[ x ] Wallet - Brown and used
[ x ] Hairbrush - Grey and compact
[ x ] Toothbrush - pink and white...spinbrush
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - my rings Linda gave me
[ x ] Pillow cover - dark purple
[ x ] Coffee Cup - Farside dinosaurs smoking
[ x ] Sunglasses - $10 gas station specials
[ x ] Underwear - Vicki Secret Pink
[ x ] Favorite shirt - Green Joe Mamma shirt of Paul Frank
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume - Boss by Hugo Boss (Male version)
[ x ] CD - A mix CD by LBS (A DJ friend of mine)
[ x ] Tattoos - none as of yet
[ x ] Piercings - used to have a lip and bellybutton now just ears
[ x ] In my mouth - the last drop of Chocolate Milk
[ x ] In my head - Pain
[ x ] Wishing - I was 20 lbs lighter right now.
[ x ] After this - distributing mail in my office.
[ x ] Fetishes - biting, asian women, male body odor(don't ask), porn, and my ex(don't ask).
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - My friend Ryan
[ x ] Is next to you - my window overlooking the Metro...Romantic!
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies - Drunken Master/LOTR All 3/Bridget Jone's Diary
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month - going through with my resolutions.
[ x ] The last thing you ate - BLT
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of - getting hit by a car
[ x ] Do you like candles - yes of course...the more the merrier
[ x ] Do you like incense - not too jazzed about them
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - My own yes.
[ x ] Do you believe in love - very much
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - yeah and not just romanticly
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - yeah
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - Of course
[ x ] Do you believe in God - Sure...ha ha. Yes I do.
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - Cremated
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy - Me Myself and I...soon to be best friends
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - a pony named tony
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - 1 day and a half.
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - Yes, very well thank you
[ x ] What's your favorite coin - Sacajewa Dolla.
[ x ] What are some of your favorite animals - LOJA'S! Pandas.
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand - You're not victims
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better - Native Men...What's the deal?
[ x ] Who is someone that you really wish was still around - my friend Becky. I still miss her. And my Grandpa Stan. He left too soon.
01 | the dark
02 | the deer lady
03 | my nephew walking too close to the street
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THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
01 | My Numi/My Momishu
02 | Roach
03 | Benji
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THREE THINGS I LOVE:
01 | My family/Friends
02 | being in love
03 | watching the sunset @ the top of the Eiffel Tower.
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THREE THINGS I HATE:
01 | people that aren't clear about what they want
02 | liars
03 | Guys that have egos and don't know it.
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THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
01 | Why there isn't a goodlooking/educated Native males my age.
02 | I usually want men I can't have.
03 | The Washington Redskins don't change their name.
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THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
01 | Hershey's Chocolate Milk
02 | A picture of my Grandparents when they were teenagers
03 | My loja made of wood from the Bahams...that's right it says Bahams.
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THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
01 | trying to stay awake cause I'm bored out of my brain
02 | listening to my immortal by evanescence
03 | Eating my BLT
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THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
01 | be a role model for Native Youth.
02 | get married and have 3 kids
03 | win the lottery
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THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
01 | beat Ryan @ chess/Tekken Tag.
02 | build a kick ass website.
03 | dance like no one is watching
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THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
01 | Teamplayer
02 | Shy at times
03 | Bossy Beeyatch
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THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
01 | play the guitar
02 | have an abortion
03 | go back in time to when I was happy in-love.
------------------------------------------------------------
THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
01 | Walela
02 | Indigenous
03 | Southern Boys
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THREE THINGS I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO EVER:
01 | Jewel. (I just can't stand her)
02 | Polka
03 | listen to whatever you want...
------------------------------------------------------------
THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
01 | you're not my fren...ever.
02 | Anyhow!
03 | That's so whatever. (Valley girl wannabe)
------------------------------------------------------------
THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
01 | Chipotle Burritos!
02 | BLT's
03 | Mamma's Frybread and Stew. (None better)
------------------------------------------------------------
THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
01 | French - Fluently
02 | to play the guitar
03 | Be a chess master
------------------------------------------------------------
THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
01 | Dr Pepper
02 | Chocolate Milk
03 | Water
------------------------------------------------------------
THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
01 | Muppet Show
02 | Mr. Rogers
03 | My little pony
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DESCRIBE YOUR..
[ x ] Wallet - Brown and used
[ x ] Hairbrush - Grey and compact
[ x ] Toothbrush - pink and white...spinbrush
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - my rings Linda gave me
[ x ] Pillow cover - dark purple
[ x ] Coffee Cup - Farside dinosaurs smoking
[ x ] Sunglasses - $10 gas station specials
[ x ] Underwear - Vicki Secret Pink
[ x ] Favorite shirt - Green Joe Mamma shirt of Paul Frank
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume - Boss by Hugo Boss (Male version)
[ x ] CD - A mix CD by LBS (A DJ friend of mine)
[ x ] Tattoos - none as of yet
[ x ] Piercings - used to have a lip and bellybutton now just ears
[ x ] In my mouth - the last drop of Chocolate Milk
[ x ] In my head - Pain
[ x ] Wishing - I was 20 lbs lighter right now.
[ x ] After this - distributing mail in my office.
[ x ] Fetishes - biting, asian women, male body odor(don't ask), porn, and my ex(don't ask).
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - My friend Ryan
[ x ] Is next to you - my window overlooking the Metro...Romantic!
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies - Drunken Master/LOTR All 3/Bridget Jone's Diary
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month - going through with my resolutions.
[ x ] The last thing you ate - BLT
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of - getting hit by a car
[ x ] Do you like candles - yes of course...the more the merrier
[ x ] Do you like incense - not too jazzed about them
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - My own yes.
[ x ] Do you believe in love - very much
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - yeah and not just romanticly
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - yeah
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - Of course
[ x ] Do you believe in God - Sure...ha ha. Yes I do.
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - Cremated
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy - Me Myself and I...soon to be best friends
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - a pony named tony
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - 1 day and a half.
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - Yes, very well thank you
[ x ] What's your favorite coin - Sacajewa Dolla.
[ x ] What are some of your favorite animals - LOJA'S! Pandas.
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand - You're not victims
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better - Native Men...What's the deal?
[ x ] Who is someone that you really wish was still around - my friend Becky. I still miss her. And my Grandpa Stan. He left too soon.
Friday, December 19
Thursday, December 18
It's not meant to be...
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FUH2 | Fuck You And Your H2 Click here.
So today I finally sat down and began writing my little saga of my trip to Paris. it was as great as it was long and then one flick of the mouse and it's all gone. Boooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
So I leave you with this intriguing website in hopes that it can properly express how fustrated I feel. H2 are teh suck! Laters.
Join My Space and add me!
Click here to view my myspace profile.
Hey it's fun and it's convient....well I just like it cause it's fun. But join anyways. You won't regret it! And no i don't get money for this. I just like it that much. Add me as joigazm@yahoo.com Thanks!
Hey it's fun and it's convient....well I just like it cause it's fun. But join anyways. You won't regret it! And no i don't get money for this. I just like it that much. Add me as joigazm@yahoo.com Thanks!
Tuesday, December 16
My X-Mas Wish list.
1. Digital Camera (a goot one)
2. Gift Cards from Target/Payless/Bluefly.com/Hot Topic/Any really.
3. Golf Clubs/Club (One good driver will sufice for now.)
4. Burrberry Brit by Burberry Perfume.
5. A gift cert to a Salon.
6. Le Divorce/Dance Me Outside/Love and Sex/
7. My Grandparents visiting sometime next year.
8. Hello kitty Clock radio.
9. A guitar (This one is doubtful)
10. My own little Hello Kitty tv. (Pebbles put it in my head and now I want it...Damn you!)
I'll settle for my family having a wonderful x-mas and knowing that my families/friends are safe and sound.
2. Gift Cards from Target/Payless/Bluefly.com/Hot Topic/Any really.
3. Golf Clubs/Club (One good driver will sufice for now.)
4. Burrberry Brit by Burberry Perfume.
5. A gift cert to a Salon.
6. Le Divorce/Dance Me Outside/Love and Sex/
7. My Grandparents visiting sometime next year.
8. Hello kitty Clock radio.
9. A guitar (This one is doubtful)
10. My own little Hello Kitty tv. (Pebbles put it in my head and now I want it...Damn you!)
I'll settle for my family having a wonderful x-mas and knowing that my families/friends are safe and sound.
Dear Santa letter
Click here for your own Dear Santa letter
Dear Santa,
I have been a good Girl.
It really wasn't my fault what happened at Kina's Christmas party. It was Roach who spiked the punch with too much Tequila. I can't help it if I drank 9 glasses. It was so good---smelled and tasted just like Burberry Brit.
I thought it was funny when I put Stephanie's bra on my head and danced the lambada on the couch while singing `Dancing with myself'. I didn't mean to break Kina's vibrator and don't know why Kina would sue me for Public Indicency.
I don't remember calling Benji's wife a big pony---even though she looked like one with red eye shadow and pink lipstick!
And when I threw up on Kelli's husband's arm, it was only because I ate too much of that taquito.
After all that fun, I admit I was a little tired. So I fell asleep on my way home and drove my Pontiac GTO through my neighbor's basement. I don't think that was any reason for my neighbor to call me a whipped cat and have me arrested for public drunkeness!
So, Santa...here I sit in my jail cell on Christmas Eve, all beasty and smelly. And I'm really not to blame for any of this dirty stuff. Please bring me what I want the most---bail money!
Sincerely and slowly yours,
Spring (Really a nice Girl!)
P.S. It's only 20 bucks!
Dear Santa,
I have been a good Girl.
It really wasn't my fault what happened at Kina's Christmas party. It was Roach who spiked the punch with too much Tequila. I can't help it if I drank 9 glasses. It was so good---smelled and tasted just like Burberry Brit.
I thought it was funny when I put Stephanie's bra on my head and danced the lambada on the couch while singing `Dancing with myself'. I didn't mean to break Kina's vibrator and don't know why Kina would sue me for Public Indicency.
I don't remember calling Benji's wife a big pony---even though she looked like one with red eye shadow and pink lipstick!
And when I threw up on Kelli's husband's arm, it was only because I ate too much of that taquito.
After all that fun, I admit I was a little tired. So I fell asleep on my way home and drove my Pontiac GTO through my neighbor's basement. I don't think that was any reason for my neighbor to call me a whipped cat and have me arrested for public drunkeness!
So, Santa...here I sit in my jail cell on Christmas Eve, all beasty and smelly. And I'm really not to blame for any of this dirty stuff. Please bring me what I want the most---bail money!
Sincerely and slowly yours,
Spring (Really a nice Girl!)
P.S. It's only 20 bucks!
Monday, December 15
I'm baaaaack!
Click here! Dreamkeeper Movie on ABC
I'm bruised and bewildered. I'm sore and sarcastic. I'm back from my fabulous trip to Paris! And what a trip it was. I'll write more later but I thought I would inform my friends of the world that there is this TV movie comming on ABC called the Dreamkeeper and it looks very interesting. Plus the Shane character is hotter than biscuits. ha ha ha. NE Ways. Kung-pai!
I'm bruised and bewildered. I'm sore and sarcastic. I'm back from my fabulous trip to Paris! And what a trip it was. I'll write more later but I thought I would inform my friends of the world that there is this TV movie comming on ABC called the Dreamkeeper and it looks very interesting. Plus the Shane character is hotter than biscuits. ha ha ha. NE Ways. Kung-pai!
Thursday, December 11
Greetings from Switzerland!
Just thought I would drop a line to say Alo to all my nukkaz N Ninjaz in webspaceland. I'm going to break my ass skiing tomorrow so wish me luck! Luv you all. I'm taking tons of pictures. I'll post when I get back. Peace!
Friday, December 5
One more day and all is well!
Click here for some fun! I'm sure you'll enjoy and appriciate it like I have.
Well in the past couple days that I haven't blogged so much has happened. First of all, Blessings and Condolences to the Kniffen family. My little brothers biological father passed away yesterday and he will surely be missed my many. I knew him barely but it still makes me kinda sad cause he's my baby bro's dad. Y'know. I hate tothink of him in pain. Anyways. Too be continued...
Well in the past couple days that I haven't blogged so much has happened. First of all, Blessings and Condolences to the Kniffen family. My little brothers biological father passed away yesterday and he will surely be missed my many. I knew him barely but it still makes me kinda sad cause he's my baby bro's dad. Y'know. I hate tothink of him in pain. Anyways. Too be continued...
Monday, December 1
Too FuNay!
DR. SEUSS, SOUTHERN STYLE!
*Nothing like NDN-SPAM about...well... Spam!!
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I do not like powdered eggs and Spam, I do not like them . . .
no, thanks, maa'm!
I will not eat them in OKC
I will not eat them with sofkee
I will not eat them with Wes Studi
I will not eat them with Wallace Coffey
I will not eat them in Pawnee
I will not eat them in Shawnee
I will not even eat them in Ponca City - at the V!
I do not like powdered eggs and Spam
especially not at Keystone Dam
I will not eat them in 'darko
I will not eat them with the Fish named Joe
I will not eat them at Hog Creek
I will not eat them at Cache Creek
I will not eat them at Black Bear Creek
I will not even eat them when times are bleak!
I do not like powdered eggs and Spam
I will not eat them if they're bland
I will not eat them after hours, in the Rainbow, in Lawton
I will not eat them if they hint of being rotten.
I will not eat them in "Jumps" in Fairfax
I will not eat them after even one ex-lax!
I will not eat them at Tulsa Powwow
I will not eat them at Perkins Powwow
I will not eat them at Indian Hill's Powwow
I will not eat them at Bell Powwow
I will not eat them then OR now-now!
I will not eat them with an Otoe
I will not eat them with a (Ryan) Harjo *AYE!*
I will not eat them at Seminole
I will not eat them at the swimmin' hole
I will not eat them with Kelly Haney
I will not eat them. Are you Insanee?
I do not like powdered eggs and Spam,
Even if you twist my face.
I will not eat them with a Sac and Fox (Waaay!)
I will not eat them 'cause they taste like crusty socks.
I will not eat them in the dark
I will not eat them anywhere close to Millard Clark.
I do not like powdered eggs and Spam
I will not eat them even close to White Eagle
I will not eat them with DeeDee GoodEagle
I will not eat them with Joe OR Annette Rice
I will not eat them, not once or twice
I do not like powdered eggs and Spam
I will not eat them with Jim Gray
I will not eat them, aye china, ha-way!
I will not eat them near a Cheyenne
I will not eat them in Vian
I will not eat them in Copan
I will not eat them while sittin in da' can?
I do not like powdered eggs and Spam
I will not eat them with Young Bird
I will not eat them around a nerd.
I will not eat them in da' slammer
I will not eat them with Yellow Hammer.
I will not eat them at True Loves
I will not eat them EVEN WITH that much of a buzz!
I will not eat them at Riverside
I will not eat them even if you cried.
I will not eat them at Sequoyah.
I will not eat them at Chilocco
I will not eat them in Eufaula
I will not eat them even if you do say "hey-luh"
I do not like powdered eggs and Spam
I will not eat them with a Kiowa. *Dem Kiowaz*
I will not eat them when they say "BUH"
I will not eat them with Dewayne Tofpi
I will not eat them with Dennis Zotigh
I will especially not eat them with Hammond Motah!
I will not eat them while bowling
I will not eat them while golfing
I do not like them while playing basketball or soft ball
I will not eat them playing shini or stickball
I will not eat them playing Indin' football
I will not eat them with y'all in a bingo hall.
I will not eat them at a stomp dance
I will not eat them at a war dance
I will not eat them at a gourd dance
I will not eat them at a handgame
I will not eat them with anyone who's "Mahbane"
I will not eat them Ducky Anquoe
I will not eat them - get a clue!
I will not eat them with Big Red Pop
I will not eat them with an Indin cop
I will not eat them at IICOT or if I Rot.
I will not eat them with Edmond Tate
I will not eat them fishing with stink bait.
I will not eat them, if you say Ayyye
I will not eat them, if you're gay
I will not eat them especially if you're acting "someway !"
I do not like powdered eggs and Spam
I do not like them at Concho
I do not like them at Creek Nation Casino
I do not like them while reading OKIT
I do not like them while reading ICT
I do not like them while reading the Pawnee Chief
I do not like them while I'm on the "O" - good grief!
I do not like powdered eggs and Spam
I will not eat them at the 'nine
I will not eat them cooked with a bacon rind
I will not eat them after stayin' up all night
I will not eat them . . . before you pull your bite?
~Author Unknown (Must be Kiowa, Aye.)
This poem was the Ish! I loved it. Made me LOL!
*Nothing like NDN-SPAM about...well... Spam!!
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I do not like powdered eggs and Spam, I do not like them . . .
no, thanks, maa'm!
I will not eat them in OKC
I will not eat them with sofkee
I will not eat them with Wes Studi
I will not eat them with Wallace Coffey
I will not eat them in Pawnee
I will not eat them in Shawnee
I will not even eat them in Ponca City - at the V!
I do not like powdered eggs and Spam
especially not at Keystone Dam
I will not eat them in 'darko
I will not eat them with the Fish named Joe
I will not eat them at Hog Creek
I will not eat them at Cache Creek
I will not eat them at Black Bear Creek
I will not even eat them when times are bleak!
I do not like powdered eggs and Spam
I will not eat them if they're bland
I will not eat them after hours, in the Rainbow, in Lawton
I will not eat them if they hint of being rotten.
I will not eat them in "Jumps" in Fairfax
I will not eat them after even one ex-lax!
I will not eat them at Tulsa Powwow
I will not eat them at Perkins Powwow
I will not eat them at Indian Hill's Powwow
I will not eat them at Bell Powwow
I will not eat them then OR now-now!
I will not eat them with an Otoe
I will not eat them with a (Ryan) Harjo *AYE!*
I will not eat them at Seminole
I will not eat them at the swimmin' hole
I will not eat them with Kelly Haney
I will not eat them. Are you Insanee?
I do not like powdered eggs and Spam,
Even if you twist my face.
I will not eat them with a Sac and Fox (Waaay!)
I will not eat them 'cause they taste like crusty socks.
I will not eat them in the dark
I will not eat them anywhere close to Millard Clark.
I do not like powdered eggs and Spam
I will not eat them even close to White Eagle
I will not eat them with DeeDee GoodEagle
I will not eat them with Joe OR Annette Rice
I will not eat them, not once or twice
I do not like powdered eggs and Spam
I will not eat them with Jim Gray
I will not eat them, aye china, ha-way!
I will not eat them near a Cheyenne
I will not eat them in Vian
I will not eat them in Copan
I will not eat them while sittin in da' can?
I do not like powdered eggs and Spam
I will not eat them with Young Bird
I will not eat them around a nerd.
I will not eat them in da' slammer
I will not eat them with Yellow Hammer.
I will not eat them at True Loves
I will not eat them EVEN WITH that much of a buzz!
I will not eat them at Riverside
I will not eat them even if you cried.
I will not eat them at Sequoyah.
I will not eat them at Chilocco
I will not eat them in Eufaula
I will not eat them even if you do say "hey-luh"
I do not like powdered eggs and Spam
I will not eat them with a Kiowa. *Dem Kiowaz*
I will not eat them when they say "BUH"
I will not eat them with Dewayne Tofpi
I will not eat them with Dennis Zotigh
I will especially not eat them with Hammond Motah!
I will not eat them while bowling
I will not eat them while golfing
I do not like them while playing basketball or soft ball
I will not eat them playing shini or stickball
I will not eat them playing Indin' football
I will not eat them with y'all in a bingo hall.
I will not eat them at a stomp dance
I will not eat them at a war dance
I will not eat them at a gourd dance
I will not eat them at a handgame
I will not eat them with anyone who's "Mahbane"
I will not eat them Ducky Anquoe
I will not eat them - get a clue!
I will not eat them with Big Red Pop
I will not eat them with an Indin cop
I will not eat them at IICOT or if I Rot.
I will not eat them with Edmond Tate
I will not eat them fishing with stink bait.
I will not eat them, if you say Ayyye
I will not eat them, if you're gay
I will not eat them especially if you're acting "someway !"
I do not like powdered eggs and Spam
I do not like them at Concho
I do not like them at Creek Nation Casino
I do not like them while reading OKIT
I do not like them while reading ICT
I do not like them while reading the Pawnee Chief
I do not like them while I'm on the "O" - good grief!
I do not like powdered eggs and Spam
I will not eat them at the 'nine
I will not eat them cooked with a bacon rind
I will not eat them after stayin' up all night
I will not eat them . . . before you pull your bite?
~Author Unknown (Must be Kiowa, Aye.)
This poem was the Ish! I loved it. Made me LOL!
Yeah it's December!
Hooray the first day of December. And what a weird day it started out to be. First I had this crazy dream basically telling me I have to get right with all my friends and loved ones cause I'm gonna die soon. oooooooh. Then I forgot my purse on the train this morning but I handled it and got to work late. Boooooo.
Now I'm waiting for the 5:00 buzzer so I can run to Numi's to watch her kidz tonite while she goes to see Chevelle WITHOUT ME! (Numi is teh suck) So that kinda blows.
Other than that my day's been peachy keen. I madeover my blog like whoa and now It's 75% to my satisfaction. I'll leave it alone for now. Anyhow...that is all. Peace and Frybread Grease. Dolla Dolla Bill ya'll...lol...Whatever.
Now I'm waiting for the 5:00 buzzer so I can run to Numi's to watch her kidz tonite while she goes to see Chevelle WITHOUT ME! (Numi is teh suck) So that kinda blows.
Other than that my day's been peachy keen. I madeover my blog like whoa and now It's 75% to my satisfaction. I'll leave it alone for now. Anyhow...that is all. Peace and Frybread Grease. Dolla Dolla Bill ya'll...lol...Whatever.
Friday, November 28
Why, why, why...
Why do I torture myself? WHY!
I was going thru my site trying to clean out somethings and I came across my tribute to my ex-boy from a little while back, Mr. Man. You know just to see if I really wanted to keep it up or not since we don't and probably will never talk to him again. I've already begun to erase his old emails that he sent me way back in the day. Useless shyt. Hi and by sexy stuff. And since I have a link to his yahoo profile on this tribute page I decided to see if perchance he had updated it. And, lucky me, he did. He's doing great in Vancouver, joining the Police Dept and all that plus he has a new girlfriend that loves him and is sane. Fabulous! I'm happy as happy can be for him because he deserves to be in a great relationship. And just to hear that he's loved is great to know. At least he's out there enjoying his life. I'm satisfied.
Of course, there is that very tiny small insignificant part of me that is very painfully sad. Why? Who knows why. Because I love him? Yeah sure. I do love him but I always new that on the most basic level we were not meant for each other. He was just to good for me in my mind and I still to this day don't know what he saw in me. Do I still think about him? Yeah I do. I just can't place my finger on why I feel so much for someone that I know loved me on some level but would never put down his guard to let anyone in. I dunno, maybe I did make to much of things. I made him out to be bigger than what he was...(pause) I put him sooo high on a pedastal, I could never reach him.
WHY THE FUCK AM I SAD ABOUT THIS? We went out for all of a month and talked on and off for 2 years, barely. I truely was and am happy for Benji and Ryan when they moved on. Why can't I JUST be happy for him. I really am very upset to where I'm doing my damn best not to cry at work about this. Trying to not let this little tiny insignificant part of me that is pained overwhelm me. Why does it affect me when it didn't affect me for them. (It did a little for Ryan but for other reasons)
I just don't know...For now, I'm going to go crawl in a ball in the corner and listen to my sad music. WHY? Maybe I'll figure it out. Until then...adieu and just in case you're wondering, I'll be okay, so don't worry about me.
I was going thru my site trying to clean out somethings and I came across my tribute to my ex-boy from a little while back, Mr. Man. You know just to see if I really wanted to keep it up or not since we don't and probably will never talk to him again. I've already begun to erase his old emails that he sent me way back in the day. Useless shyt. Hi and by sexy stuff. And since I have a link to his yahoo profile on this tribute page I decided to see if perchance he had updated it. And, lucky me, he did. He's doing great in Vancouver, joining the Police Dept and all that plus he has a new girlfriend that loves him and is sane. Fabulous! I'm happy as happy can be for him because he deserves to be in a great relationship. And just to hear that he's loved is great to know. At least he's out there enjoying his life. I'm satisfied.
Of course, there is that very tiny small insignificant part of me that is very painfully sad. Why? Who knows why. Because I love him? Yeah sure. I do love him but I always new that on the most basic level we were not meant for each other. He was just to good for me in my mind and I still to this day don't know what he saw in me. Do I still think about him? Yeah I do. I just can't place my finger on why I feel so much for someone that I know loved me on some level but would never put down his guard to let anyone in. I dunno, maybe I did make to much of things. I made him out to be bigger than what he was...(pause) I put him sooo high on a pedastal, I could never reach him.
WHY THE FUCK AM I SAD ABOUT THIS? We went out for all of a month and talked on and off for 2 years, barely. I truely was and am happy for Benji and Ryan when they moved on. Why can't I JUST be happy for him. I really am very upset to where I'm doing my damn best not to cry at work about this. Trying to not let this little tiny insignificant part of me that is pained overwhelm me. Why does it affect me when it didn't affect me for them. (It did a little for Ryan but for other reasons)
I just don't know...For now, I'm going to go crawl in a ball in the corner and listen to my sad music. WHY? Maybe I'll figure it out. Until then...adieu and just in case you're wondering, I'll be okay, so don't worry about me.
Thank god it's over!
Click here to view Mah profile on my space...You should join and add me as a friend!
I absolutely love myspace.com. It rawks my sox and it's soo convientent. It's free and you can add all the friends you like. You can make network of friends grow. You have your own journal. You can meet new cool ash people, and you can post bulletins that will be seen by all your friends so you don't have to write them all individually. You can keep in touch with all your pow-wow buddies/snaggs at once and you can me new ones...(muahahahaha) It's basically like friendster but I believe it's alot cooler. Friendster seems uptight to me. Anyways, join and add me my email is joigazm@yahoo.com. If you would like an invite email me your email or put it in the comments or sumthing...thanks, and now on to other news....
I'll be happy if I never see another turkey for 365 days. ha ha ha. Man...I was soooooo stuffed yesterday. I went to my friend Kina's yesterday and her mom cooked the bombest meal I've ever seen. It looked like it was catered it was soo nice. If anything I'm Thankful for that. I ate soo much and kept trying to eat but I just couldn't do it. We watched a movie to help digestion but it I still felt like a bloated tick.
Afterward we went in search of a few drinks and finally decided to go to Alchemy @ Nation. It was kinda awkward at first but cause it was Goth night but as soon as we got in I was mesmirized. I had such a kick ass time and I love the music. The people were great too. I think I'll drag my friend Ryan there next week when he gets here. He love that shyt. Kina and Roach like it too. We'll just have to "dress up" next time. Oh I'm so goth...ha ha ha ha Black Rox!
Peace, Love, Understanding and Respect,
Spring
I absolutely love myspace.com. It rawks my sox and it's soo convientent. It's free and you can add all the friends you like. You can make network of friends grow. You have your own journal. You can meet new cool ash people, and you can post bulletins that will be seen by all your friends so you don't have to write them all individually. You can keep in touch with all your pow-wow buddies/snaggs at once and you can me new ones...(muahahahaha) It's basically like friendster but I believe it's alot cooler. Friendster seems uptight to me. Anyways, join and add me my email is joigazm@yahoo.com. If you would like an invite email me your email or put it in the comments or sumthing...thanks, and now on to other news....
I'll be happy if I never see another turkey for 365 days. ha ha ha. Man...I was soooooo stuffed yesterday. I went to my friend Kina's yesterday and her mom cooked the bombest meal I've ever seen. It looked like it was catered it was soo nice. If anything I'm Thankful for that. I ate soo much and kept trying to eat but I just couldn't do it. We watched a movie to help digestion but it I still felt like a bloated tick.
Afterward we went in search of a few drinks and finally decided to go to Alchemy @ Nation. It was kinda awkward at first but cause it was Goth night but as soon as we got in I was mesmirized. I had such a kick ass time and I love the music. The people were great too. I think I'll drag my friend Ryan there next week when he gets here. He love that shyt. Kina and Roach like it too. We'll just have to "dress up" next time. Oh I'm so goth...ha ha ha ha Black Rox!
Peace, Love, Understanding and Respect,
Spring
Tuesday, November 25
My Services
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Hey y'all it's been a couple weeks since I've written anything substantianal on this hurr. And I apologize to the millionz of fans. I promise to write tomorrow!
Hey y'all it's been a couple weeks since I've written anything substantianal on this hurr. And I apologize to the millionz of fans. I promise to write tomorrow!
Tuesday, November 18
French Phrases.
How to be Obnoxious in French
Ah ha. In my quest to make a last ditch effort to speak a little French. (Well maybe not the last) I stumbled upon this little page of useful French for my upcomming trip to ghey parriee. This page is hillarious. It's not what I was looking for when I googled it but it's definately amusing. I just might use some. I think my favorite is...
"Do you have any French in you? Would you like some?"
"Vous avez des origines fran?aises? Pourquoi pas une descendance fran?aise?"
(voo za - vay deh zo - ri - zhin fran - say? poor kwu pah deh - sen - dans fran - say?)
Fun-nay! Anyhow. That is all. Carry on. And if you happen to find some real useful French email it to me. S'il vous plais. Merci!
Ah ha. In my quest to make a last ditch effort to speak a little French. (Well maybe not the last) I stumbled upon this little page of useful French for my upcomming trip to ghey parriee. This page is hillarious. It's not what I was looking for when I googled it but it's definately amusing. I just might use some. I think my favorite is...
"Do you have any French in you? Would you like some?"
"Vous avez des origines fran?aises? Pourquoi pas une descendance fran?aise?"
(voo za - vay deh zo - ri - zhin fran - say? poor kwu pah deh - sen - dans fran - say?)
Fun-nay! Anyhow. That is all. Carry on. And if you happen to find some real useful French email it to me. S'il vous plais. Merci!
Friday, November 14
WTF
Click for Walama Love!
My random act of weirdness today. WTF is a Walama. I don't know. It's weird scary krazy cute....who the fuck knows.
My random act of weirdness today. WTF is a Walama. I don't know. It's weird scary krazy cute....who the fuck knows.
Thursday, November 13
OMG - Too Funny!
Click here because Black People Love Us!
This syte is too freakin funny. If I had the time I would do one called "I'm native too". Cooorazy! I'm not racist. I have white friends! ha ha ha ha.
This syte is too freakin funny. If I had the time I would do one called "I'm native too". Cooorazy! I'm not racist. I have white friends! ha ha ha ha.
Wednesday, November 12
For the 80's Babies. Test your knowledge...
I got a 46. I must brush up. I felt dumb because I knew some of the lyrics I didn't get. It was bummie. Anyways, have fun with it!
I had a bummie day off yesterday. It was just kind of a depressing day. Seeing my nephew always lifts my spirits. He always has something witty and/or offbeat to say. Four year olds....gotta luv'em. As for now I'm just waiting for the days to go by faster. My gurl Roach is moving up here with me soon. She'll be here next week. FINALLY! She's a really good friend and I am blessed to have her in my life. She's really giving and knows how to have fun. Maybe she'll drop by here sometime. Other than that it's just waiting for Gay Pair-ree. I can't wait. I'm cleaning my room so I can start packing. I wanna look good in paris. It's a must! As for everything else in my life. I miss my friend Stephanie, I wish I had a pet, I found my Frankie J cd today (kew), and I'm hungry. Maybe I'll write more later. Peash out.
Monday, November 10
Vote for the Navajo girl!
http://www.msnbc.com/modules/tvnews/tdy_superstar/vote.asp#survey
She's very talented. And it's good karma to support your Native peoplez. Take care for now.
She's very talented. And it's good karma to support your Native peoplez. Take care for now.
Friday, November 7
Matrix was bad ash!
The Hunger Site : Click here to give Food for Free to Hungry People in the World
Anyways, the Matrix was teh badness! I absolutely loved it. I so happy it didn't suck. It's definately a must see and if it's been a while since you seen Reloaded then definately watch it before you go. I loved everything about it. Granted there were a few KoRny parts but all in all I am satisfied. It's kinda one of those things where you love it or hate it. No real in between. But definately make it to see this flick.
Yesterday I had the pleasure of volunteering for the IHS Director's Awards. I got to meet the Surgeon General ....brb
Anyways, the Matrix was teh badness! I absolutely loved it. I so happy it didn't suck. It's definately a must see and if it's been a while since you seen Reloaded then definately watch it before you go. I loved everything about it. Granted there were a few KoRny parts but all in all I am satisfied. It's kinda one of those things where you love it or hate it. No real in between. But definately make it to see this flick.
Yesterday I had the pleasure of volunteering for the IHS Director's Awards. I got to meet the Surgeon General ....brb
Wednesday, November 5
Tha Matrix....
Matrix Review (washingtonpost.com)
Man, I was so excited to go see the Matrix today. I have my tickets and everything. Then Benji tells me to read the reviews. The reviews say it sucks. He's been saying things like that since I bought the tickets and he's the one that wanted me to buy them! He's been like "Oh they say it sucks..." Oh this and oh that. Jackass. If you don't want to see it anymore then just say so. I'll give the ticket to someone else. It's whatever, mang. I don't care if it isn't that great. I'm going to party on like it is. HA! To get all into it I even watched the Matix Reloaded last night. I've seen AniMatrix and I've played Enter the Matrix a little. I'm not obsessed or anything I just think it's fun. Anyways, I got in late today so I get to be here til 6:00. Hooray! It's okay though were going strait to the Feeahter (As Tris would say) from here. The movie starts and 7:20. And I can't wait....buy for now.
Man, I was so excited to go see the Matrix today. I have my tickets and everything. Then Benji tells me to read the reviews. The reviews say it sucks. He's been saying things like that since I bought the tickets and he's the one that wanted me to buy them! He's been like "Oh they say it sucks..." Oh this and oh that. Jackass. If you don't want to see it anymore then just say so. I'll give the ticket to someone else. It's whatever, mang. I don't care if it isn't that great. I'm going to party on like it is. HA! To get all into it I even watched the Matix Reloaded last night. I've seen AniMatrix and I've played Enter the Matrix a little. I'm not obsessed or anything I just think it's fun. Anyways, I got in late today so I get to be here til 6:00. Hooray! It's okay though were going strait to the Feeahter (As Tris would say) from here. The movie starts and 7:20. And I can't wait....buy for now.
Tuesday, November 4
My New favorite space.
Myspace.com
Check this out, sign up and add me to your friendsters. It's groovey.
Wanna know something about me? Here:
1. What is the first person you ever slept with's middle name?
Randall
2. What kind of underwear are you wearing and what color?
*Does a quick check* Dark Blue Target Clearance bloomers.
3. What is the song you want played at your Funeral?
I will love you - Fisher
4. What is the phone number of your sluttiest friend so some of the single people can get some?
Stephanie - hahahahaha it's (208) 234-1234. Luff ya, Stef!
5. What Would Your Last Meal be before getting executed?
Mama's Indian Taco's. It's the bizzomb.
6. Beatles or Stones?
Neither they both taste bad...
7. If you had to pick one person on earth who should die, who would it be?
George Bush. There is no good reason for his nonsense.
8. The person whose problems you would never want to hear?
Ron Jeremy....You're a fat porn star who gets it on the reg....Don't want to hear it!
9. What is the thing most important to you (as far as physical) about the preferred sex?
Beautiful eyes.
10. DO YOU secretly hate some of your friendsters but are too nice to reject them?
Not really I just got here.
11. If you could have any super power what would it be?
I wanna Fly. I could visit my family all time time and travel the world.
12. FAVORITE hangover cure?
Bloody Mary and morning secks.
13. How many drinks does it take to get you drunk?
I can drink beer til 5 then it's crazy spring time.
14. FAVORITE Outkast Lyric?
Ain't nobody dope as me...I'm just so fresh
So fresh and so clean, clean
I know you think I'm so sexy...I'm just so fresh
so fresh and so clean, clean...
15. HAIR COLOR you most like someone you're dating to have?
Black or Dark Brown.
16. If you had to be blind or deaf?
Blind. Music is so much better and I couldn't live without.
17. DO YOU have any psychiatric problems?
I hope so!
18. SIBLINGS that should go to rehab?
Pee-try. And my brother-in-law...hahahaha J/K
19. Least FAVORITE MONTH?
January....it goes by too fast.
20. FAVORITE hateful thing to do to someone?
Fine then....You're not my friend ever!
21. First movie you can remember seeing as a kid?
ET
22. FAVORITE person in the whole world?
My Numi
23. When's the last time you went on a date?
A real date....In July
24. DO YOU LIKE violent movies or dirty movies?
It's the dirty, dirty...
25. FALL OR SPRING?
I'm partial to Spring for obvious reasons but I love Fall.
26. Person you most wish you hadn't made out with?
Um...that one guy...from that one pow-wow....yeah....
27. If you are straight, what person of the same sex would you do it with?
Selma Hayek. Muy Caliente!
28. Where do you want to live when you are old and brittle?
Idaho/Georgia/Florida. Somewhere my ancestors came from.
29. WHO is the person you can count on most?
My Father. He's stable and trustworthy.
30. If you could date any celebrity past or present, time and age or not factors?
Frank Sinatra in his good ole days. Sing to me Frankie!
31. WHAT BOOKS have you pretended you've read?
Les Miserables....I just never finished it. :(
32. WHAT'S a word you would use to describe your life?
Blessed.
33. FAVORITE drinking GAME?
Drunk Driver.
34. WHAT DID YOU DREAM LAST NIGHT?
My ex-boyfriend Phil and I were back together. God only knows why. Sheesh.
35. FAVORITE vices?
internet, music (all kinds), ex-boyfriends (I'm a better friend than lover I suppose, hahaha), dancing in clubs, Paris!
36. What is the last thing you'd ever tell someone?
hmmmm.....I guess you'll never know.
That's all for today folks. Catch u on the flip.
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1. What is the first person you ever slept with's middle name?
Randall
2. What kind of underwear are you wearing and what color?
*Does a quick check* Dark Blue Target Clearance bloomers.
3. What is the song you want played at your Funeral?
I will love you - Fisher
4. What is the phone number of your sluttiest friend so some of the single people can get some?
Stephanie - hahahahaha it's (208) 234-1234. Luff ya, Stef!
5. What Would Your Last Meal be before getting executed?
Mama's Indian Taco's. It's the bizzomb.
6. Beatles or Stones?
Neither they both taste bad...
7. If you had to pick one person on earth who should die, who would it be?
George Bush. There is no good reason for his nonsense.
8. The person whose problems you would never want to hear?
Ron Jeremy....You're a fat porn star who gets it on the reg....Don't want to hear it!
9. What is the thing most important to you (as far as physical) about the preferred sex?
Beautiful eyes.
10. DO YOU secretly hate some of your friendsters but are too nice to reject them?
Not really I just got here.
11. If you could have any super power what would it be?
I wanna Fly. I could visit my family all time time and travel the world.
12. FAVORITE hangover cure?
Bloody Mary and morning secks.
13. How many drinks does it take to get you drunk?
I can drink beer til 5 then it's crazy spring time.
14. FAVORITE Outkast Lyric?
Ain't nobody dope as me...I'm just so fresh
So fresh and so clean, clean
I know you think I'm so sexy...I'm just so fresh
so fresh and so clean, clean...
15. HAIR COLOR you most like someone you're dating to have?
Black or Dark Brown.
16. If you had to be blind or deaf?
Blind. Music is so much better and I couldn't live without.
17. DO YOU have any psychiatric problems?
I hope so!
18. SIBLINGS that should go to rehab?
Pee-try. And my brother-in-law...hahahaha J/K
19. Least FAVORITE MONTH?
January....it goes by too fast.
20. FAVORITE hateful thing to do to someone?
Fine then....You're not my friend ever!
21. First movie you can remember seeing as a kid?
ET
22. FAVORITE person in the whole world?
My Numi
23. When's the last time you went on a date?
A real date....In July
24. DO YOU LIKE violent movies or dirty movies?
It's the dirty, dirty...
25. FALL OR SPRING?
I'm partial to Spring for obvious reasons but I love Fall.
26. Person you most wish you hadn't made out with?
Um...that one guy...from that one pow-wow....yeah....
27. If you are straight, what person of the same sex would you do it with?
Selma Hayek. Muy Caliente!
28. Where do you want to live when you are old and brittle?
Idaho/Georgia/Florida. Somewhere my ancestors came from.
29. WHO is the person you can count on most?
My Father. He's stable and trustworthy.
30. If you could date any celebrity past or present, time and age or not factors?
Frank Sinatra in his good ole days. Sing to me Frankie!
31. WHAT BOOKS have you pretended you've read?
Les Miserables....I just never finished it. :(
32. WHAT'S a word you would use to describe your life?
Blessed.
33. FAVORITE drinking GAME?
Drunk Driver.
34. WHAT DID YOU DREAM LAST NIGHT?
My ex-boyfriend Phil and I were back together. God only knows why. Sheesh.
35. FAVORITE vices?
internet, music (all kinds), ex-boyfriends (I'm a better friend than lover I suppose, hahaha), dancing in clubs, Paris!
36. What is the last thing you'd ever tell someone?
hmmmm.....I guess you'll never know.
That's all for today folks. Catch u on the flip.
Monday, November 3
New News
Well, this weekend was and good one I believe. Friday I got to hang out with some cool people and had a blast laughing all night long. Saturday I watched TV by my lonesome which was good and Sunday I took my nephew to see Brother Bear. It was good because I'm into the inspirational/touching stuff but not so much for kids. One too many killings that needed to be explained. I loved it though. I just bought my tickets to see Matrix on Wednesday And I intend to have a blast. I usually an all about movie openings, especially when they're kewl. (I.E. Star Wars/LOTR/Matrix) It's all good. I barely missed out on the once in a lifetime chance to watch the LOTR Trilogy on Dec 15th. They are going to show all three in once day, the day before Return of the king comes out. OH well C'est la vie. I still got my ticket to see Return of the King that Wednesday and I would've had to take the day off to see it. I gotta be gettin now. So I'll catch you katz on the flip side. Laters.
Friday, October 31
Where I spend my time....Buzz Message Board
Yep. This is where I spend most of my brain cells and time. It's a message board for people that like Techno/House/Whatever. Plus, you get a discount to the coolest club in DC if you post at least 10 times a week. It's a place to vent, a place to laugh, and a place to learn interesting useless knowledge. I love it.
:Sub-change: Lately, I've been having weird dreams about one of my ex's. I know everyone does but this particular one seems to be Haunting me lately. When I was walking out of the store a couple weeks ago I swear he was walking straight toward me and my heart lept in my throat. And before that I happen to hear someone with a voice just like his and his laugh behind me. This is all strange because he's like a million miles away and has no other business in DC. There's no way he'd come here unless it was for church or something. (Which is how I met him in the first place) Anyways, he was online today and when I saw his name light up it freaked me out. We don't talk anymore because I don't know why. It could be alot of things but bottom line is we don't communicate. I know that's not odd for some but it's odd for me. It's just bothers me I suppose. I miss him alot. Oh wellz....boo hoo for me.
Anyways, Happy Halloween y'all. Here a card for all of y'all!
It's the least I can do for the Holidayz. Stay safe and if you're in DC call 1-800-200-TAXI for a free ride home. Have a great weekend and take care y'all.
Yep. This is where I spend most of my brain cells and time. It's a message board for people that like Techno/House/Whatever. Plus, you get a discount to the coolest club in DC if you post at least 10 times a week. It's a place to vent, a place to laugh, and a place to learn interesting useless knowledge. I love it.
:Sub-change: Lately, I've been having weird dreams about one of my ex's. I know everyone does but this particular one seems to be Haunting me lately. When I was walking out of the store a couple weeks ago I swear he was walking straight toward me and my heart lept in my throat. And before that I happen to hear someone with a voice just like his and his laugh behind me. This is all strange because he's like a million miles away and has no other business in DC. There's no way he'd come here unless it was for church or something. (Which is how I met him in the first place) Anyways, he was online today and when I saw his name light up it freaked me out. We don't talk anymore because I don't know why. It could be alot of things but bottom line is we don't communicate. I know that's not odd for some but it's odd for me. It's just bothers me I suppose. I miss him alot. Oh wellz....boo hoo for me.
Anyways, Happy Halloween y'all. Here a card for all of y'all!
It's the least I can do for the Holidayz. Stay safe and if you're in DC call 1-800-200-TAXI for a free ride home. Have a great weekend and take care y'all.
Thursday, October 30
Welcome to NewsOK.com
OU BABY! OU/OSU game on Saturday! R U Ready! It's time to represent. OU all the way!
OU BABY! OU/OSU game on Saturday! R U Ready! It's time to represent. OU all the way!
Monday, October 27
Friday, October 24
I jacked up my blog on purpose. I just can't get it to where I want to be. I don't want to host it from my site because it takes too much of my space and doing it here puts that big ol banner at the top. Which is fine but thats usually were my buttons are. So either I change my format...(Again) or I just play around. So I guess I'm playing around cause I'm too lazy to do another format. Whoa to me.
Anyways, I'm heading down to the passport office on Monday. It's kinda cutting it short but I'm going to pray hard everyday that my passort gets here on time. I'm so excited. It's really unbelievable to me that I am actually going to Paris. I mean. I've always dreamed about it. Ever since the fourth grade. You know how you say things like that. I'm going to be president" "I'm going to the moon" To me it's like one of those things. Something that wasn't very probable. But it's here and I'm going. I only wish I could take my best friend Stephanie. I want her to go but it's kinda a family only type of thing. The only crazy thing about this trip is that I am going with my ex-boyfriends parents. They are the most generous and nicest people I've ever met. And they love me to death. I love them too. I would do anything for them. They've come to see me twice this year. Just to see me. It's a really different situation. Just not one that many can relate to I suppose. It's just crazy to me because....well it's my ex-boyfriends parents. My ex-boyfriend says he doesn't mind. And we're pretty good friends. We respect and love eachother. So there's nothing really awkward there. I don't talk to him everyday but he lives about a thousand miles away. I have no problems with that either. For now everything is fine and I would like to keep it that way.
Anyways, I want to write more but I have a lunch date. Talk to yah'z later.
Anyways, I'm heading down to the passport office on Monday. It's kinda cutting it short but I'm going to pray hard everyday that my passort gets here on time. I'm so excited. It's really unbelievable to me that I am actually going to Paris. I mean. I've always dreamed about it. Ever since the fourth grade. You know how you say things like that. I'm going to be president" "I'm going to the moon" To me it's like one of those things. Something that wasn't very probable. But it's here and I'm going. I only wish I could take my best friend Stephanie. I want her to go but it's kinda a family only type of thing. The only crazy thing about this trip is that I am going with my ex-boyfriends parents. They are the most generous and nicest people I've ever met. And they love me to death. I love them too. I would do anything for them. They've come to see me twice this year. Just to see me. It's a really different situation. Just not one that many can relate to I suppose. It's just crazy to me because....well it's my ex-boyfriends parents. My ex-boyfriend says he doesn't mind. And we're pretty good friends. We respect and love eachother. So there's nothing really awkward there. I don't talk to him everyday but he lives about a thousand miles away. I have no problems with that either. For now everything is fine and I would like to keep it that way.
Anyways, I want to write more but I have a lunch date. Talk to yah'z later.
Thursday, October 23
It's a free confession!
grouphug.us // let it all out
OMG this is the best site I have come across in a long time. It's a free and confidential way to confess your sins and air out your dirty laundry i.e. get that thing out you've been wanting to tell people but have been afraid to say. It's comforting in a way. Definately Check it out. Even if you have nothing to confess. Anyways, Ciao for now.
OMG this is the best site I have come across in a long time. It's a free and confidential way to confess your sins and air out your dirty laundry i.e. get that thing out you've been wanting to tell people but have been afraid to say. It's comforting in a way. Definately Check it out. Even if you have nothing to confess. Anyways, Ciao for now.
Wednesday, October 22
pratique ? Paris par l'Office de Tourisme et des Congr??s de Paris
pratique ? Paris par l'Office de Tourisme et des Congr?s de Paris
OMG! I am going to Paris! I just found out a couple minutes ago. I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...happy! *tear* I can't believe it. My life long wish is finally comming true. I'd write more but I gotta go home. Ciao!
OMG! I am going to Paris! I just found out a couple minutes ago. I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...happy! *tear* I can't believe it. My life long wish is finally comming true. I'd write more but I gotta go home. Ciao!
Tuesday, October 21
Tupac : Resurrection
Tupac : Resurrection
Hey y'all. You need to check out the new Tupac Trailer and The song "Runnin" No werdz....just about time. You can listen and see @ the link above. Holla
Hey y'all. You need to check out the new Tupac Trailer and The song "Runnin" No werdz....just about time. You can listen and see @ the link above. Holla
Monday, October 20
JoAnne Bird - Native American painting online gallery
JoAnne Bird - Native American painting online gallery Beautiful Art! I am buying immediately!
Anyways, Howdy Y'all. It's me finally. I haven't kicked my thoughts for a while and thought today may as well be the day. (Lucky U!) Well alot and no so much has happened in the past couple weeks and months or whatever I don't know if I can remember much. Last week, my adopted parents (Linda and Will) came to see me. It was nice. They are so wonderful. They took me shopping and we went to Arlington Nat. Cem. I had never been to Arlington before so it was a new experience. The whole place is very serene. I got to see where JFK was buried. I got to see the changing of the guards @ the tomb of the unknown soldier. And I got to check out Robert E. Lee's pad. It's was quaint. They had the old slave quarters and all. It was hard for me to really grasp that this was actually part of history and there were actual slaves that lived right where I was standing. I know it seems strange comming from a Native (Just like non-Natives feel when they visit old Indian Bording schools) but it's still true. I mean it's a very significant part of history that I don't necessarily have to relate with but sometime I wish I could. Ya know? I'm still in the transitional phase in my life to where I need to feel like I really don't know who I am at all. I'm just drifting in a subdued sense of being. There has always been a big part of me that really wanted to connect with the my past, and my ancestors so that I could go forward with a sense of duty or purpose. And then one day when I was in my head something came to me...
One thing that I have always been proud of (besides being Native) is the fact that I am a direct decendant of Chief Black Kettle. And sometimes just saying it sounds empty, like I'm bragging that my dad is better than your day or something. Why? Because even though I know this fact about myself what am I really doing with it? Its always fine and good be proud of your lineage (sp?) but I have always felt that I have a special gift that I have not yet fully explored. I am a direct descendant of Chief Black Kettle. What exactly does that mean to me?
Chief Black Kettle was a leader for the Southern Cheyenne that stood with his people under the American Flag because he didn't wish his people to suffer any longer. He was promised that if he stood under that flag then no harm would come to his people. He stood under that flag for peace. Subsequently, nearly 200 people were massacared. Chief Black Kettle managed to escape with a wife. And even though he seen his people killed before his eyes, he still went back and advocated for peace to the council.
So what does all this mean for me? It means I have no right to take my life for granted when my grandfather stood for so much. I didn't have to be here and in some ways maybe I wasn't suppose to be. But my he stood for what he believed in...he stood for there being peace with United State and his people. He stood for his people to thrive and prosper. He stood for his daughters to have children and for their children to have children. And he stood for me having a better life and for my children to grow up in a peaceful world. And for all this, I should be grateful. And I am. Sometimes it's so easy to forget what it really means to be here, In this space, at this moment, in this world. Many other people stood for me to be here, not just him. But knowing this helps me to keep track of my vision for the world and what Iwant accomplish in this lifetime. I may have to be reminded from time to time, but at least I know this much.
Anyways, that's all for now. I didn't mean to go off like that but it's been on my mind for a while. And I wanted to get it down. My website is comming along nicely and I think I might be liking it. (woo hoo!) Feel free to leave comments if you like. If you have any suggestions lemme. know. <-:Peace:->
Anyways, Howdy Y'all. It's me finally. I haven't kicked my thoughts for a while and thought today may as well be the day. (Lucky U!) Well alot and no so much has happened in the past couple weeks and months or whatever I don't know if I can remember much. Last week, my adopted parents (Linda and Will) came to see me. It was nice. They are so wonderful. They took me shopping and we went to Arlington Nat. Cem. I had never been to Arlington before so it was a new experience. The whole place is very serene. I got to see where JFK was buried. I got to see the changing of the guards @ the tomb of the unknown soldier. And I got to check out Robert E. Lee's pad. It's was quaint. They had the old slave quarters and all. It was hard for me to really grasp that this was actually part of history and there were actual slaves that lived right where I was standing. I know it seems strange comming from a Native (Just like non-Natives feel when they visit old Indian Bording schools) but it's still true. I mean it's a very significant part of history that I don't necessarily have to relate with but sometime I wish I could. Ya know? I'm still in the transitional phase in my life to where I need to feel like I really don't know who I am at all. I'm just drifting in a subdued sense of being. There has always been a big part of me that really wanted to connect with the my past, and my ancestors so that I could go forward with a sense of duty or purpose. And then one day when I was in my head something came to me...
One thing that I have always been proud of (besides being Native) is the fact that I am a direct decendant of Chief Black Kettle. And sometimes just saying it sounds empty, like I'm bragging that my dad is better than your day or something. Why? Because even though I know this fact about myself what am I really doing with it? Its always fine and good be proud of your lineage (sp?) but I have always felt that I have a special gift that I have not yet fully explored. I am a direct descendant of Chief Black Kettle. What exactly does that mean to me?
Chief Black Kettle was a leader for the Southern Cheyenne that stood with his people under the American Flag because he didn't wish his people to suffer any longer. He was promised that if he stood under that flag then no harm would come to his people. He stood under that flag for peace. Subsequently, nearly 200 people were massacared. Chief Black Kettle managed to escape with a wife. And even though he seen his people killed before his eyes, he still went back and advocated for peace to the council.
So what does all this mean for me? It means I have no right to take my life for granted when my grandfather stood for so much. I didn't have to be here and in some ways maybe I wasn't suppose to be. But my he stood for what he believed in...he stood for there being peace with United State and his people. He stood for his people to thrive and prosper. He stood for his daughters to have children and for their children to have children. And he stood for me having a better life and for my children to grow up in a peaceful world. And for all this, I should be grateful. And I am. Sometimes it's so easy to forget what it really means to be here, In this space, at this moment, in this world. Many other people stood for me to be here, not just him. But knowing this helps me to keep track of my vision for the world and what Iwant accomplish in this lifetime. I may have to be reminded from time to time, but at least I know this much.
Anyways, that's all for now. I didn't mean to go off like that but it's been on my mind for a while. And I wanted to get it down. My website is comming along nicely and I think I might be liking it. (woo hoo!) Feel free to leave comments if you like. If you have any suggestions lemme. know. <-:Peace:->
Thursday, October 9
Wednesday, October 8
Sunday, October 5
Risa's Page-Pink Entrance
Risa's Page-Pink Entrance
I was thinking alot tonite. About everything that's been going on. All the things I fail to talk about. And I really want to take the time and write down my thoughts about all the keys points in my life that I dwell on entirely too much. Oh yeah, another kewl page BTW...^^^
Anyway, things like my beautifully failed relationships with Ryan and why my relationship with Mr. Man didn't amount to anything. The only thing that I believe that I can be truely thankful for is the fact that whether I like it or not Benji has always been there consistantly and continues to do so. I'm blessed and cursed at the same time. :-) Anyways. I just wanted to get that down at least because i'ts four in the morning and I've got to sleep. Sweet Dreams.
I was thinking alot tonite. About everything that's been going on. All the things I fail to talk about. And I really want to take the time and write down my thoughts about all the keys points in my life that I dwell on entirely too much. Oh yeah, another kewl page BTW...^^^
Anyway, things like my beautifully failed relationships with Ryan and why my relationship with Mr. Man didn't amount to anything. The only thing that I believe that I can be truely thankful for is the fact that whether I like it or not Benji has always been there consistantly and continues to do so. I'm blessed and cursed at the same time. :-) Anyways. I just wanted to get that down at least because i'ts four in the morning and I've got to sleep. Sweet Dreams.
Friday, October 3
Danna Saunders| starville
Danna Saunders| starville
Thank god it's Friday. The link above it to another awesome site I recently had the pleasure of visiting. It's really kewl you should check it out. She's a model and has some very interesting reads. I highly recommend it.
Anyways, I know I always promise I'll write more later but I mean it. There are some things I want to get done today with the site and I think I'm going to do a quickie make over of the entire site while I still have paint shop pro capabilities. Nothing fancy. I just don't like the colors and the logo. It's just not me. Maybe I'll even go as far as to remove the black...muahahahahaha....I don't know we'll see soon won't we. Oh yeah, and thanks for trying to send the pictures Roach. I don't the net can be fiesty at times. I love you. And to my sister Stephanie. Where are you girl. I know the ball is in my court and I need to call you back. I will tonite I promise. Anyhow. L8ters.
Thank god it's Friday. The link above it to another awesome site I recently had the pleasure of visiting. It's really kewl you should check it out. She's a model and has some very interesting reads. I highly recommend it.
Anyways, I know I always promise I'll write more later but I mean it. There are some things I want to get done today with the site and I think I'm going to do a quickie make over of the entire site while I still have paint shop pro capabilities. Nothing fancy. I just don't like the colors and the logo. It's just not me. Maybe I'll even go as far as to remove the black...muahahahahaha....I don't know we'll see soon won't we. Oh yeah, and thanks for trying to send the pictures Roach. I don't the net can be fiesty at times. I love you. And to my sister Stephanie. Where are you girl. I know the ball is in my court and I need to call you back. I will tonite I promise. Anyhow. L8ters.
Thursday, October 2
Wednesday, October 1
INDIGENOUS-Jive Records
INDIGENOUS-Jive Records
So I bought tickets yesterday to see my most favoritest band ever! Needless to say I was very excited. Don't you think Mato is sexy as hell? I do.
I have the whole story but I'll save it for tomorrow. Peace and Frybread greece.
So I bought tickets yesterday to see my most favoritest band ever! Needless to say I was very excited. Don't you think Mato is sexy as hell? I do.
I have the whole story but I'll save it for tomorrow. Peace and Frybread greece.
Tuesday, September 30
Friday, September 26
Stephanie's Dream Man....Aye...JUST KIDDING Steph!
Anyways, the link up above is to a Guy named Wiley Petersen. He's a gorgeous bullrider who takes pride in spreading the word of god to all his fans. He's also a very successful bullrider. It's really nice to see someone from Fort Hall doing something positive and uplifting. I never really new him so I'm not going to pretend we were friends once upon a time or anthing. I just like to tease Steph about him because we all used to go to Junior High together back in the day and she....she might not want me to tell that story.....hmmmm......Anyways, I know he'll never probably see this but congradulations to you Wiley I appricate what you do and may you continue to recieve all of his blessings.
Anyhow I thought I would drop some lines while I had the time to say that I am totally luvin my job. It's the dog's tuxedo. I may just stay here for a while. It's good. With health benefits and all. So I'm proud of myself for the time being. I'm still in love with Frankie J. He's just absolutely gorgeous. I am crossing my fingers that Roachie goes to see him this weekend and at least get a glimpse. So I can live vicariously through her....hahahahah. Wow it's almost 5....I better get going. Peace and humptyness forever.
Anyways, the link up above is to a Guy named Wiley Petersen. He's a gorgeous bullrider who takes pride in spreading the word of god to all his fans. He's also a very successful bullrider. It's really nice to see someone from Fort Hall doing something positive and uplifting. I never really new him so I'm not going to pretend we were friends once upon a time or anthing. I just like to tease Steph about him because we all used to go to Junior High together back in the day and she....she might not want me to tell that story.....hmmmm......Anyways, I know he'll never probably see this but congradulations to you Wiley I appricate what you do and may you continue to recieve all of his blessings.
Anyhow I thought I would drop some lines while I had the time to say that I am totally luvin my job. It's the dog's tuxedo. I may just stay here for a while. It's good. With health benefits and all. So I'm proud of myself for the time being. I'm still in love with Frankie J. He's just absolutely gorgeous. I am crossing my fingers that Roachie goes to see him this weekend and at least get a glimpse. So I can live vicariously through her....hahahahah. Wow it's almost 5....I better get going. Peace and humptyness forever.
Monday, September 22
Baby Bash
Oh yeah, baby. Here is another obsession to add to my collection. His new song Suga Suga is sooo dreamy. I love it. Not to metion he has my husband Frankie J on it as well. Lovely lovely. You can see the video on Launch.com and you can listen to the song on the website. I strongly and highly recommend it!
In more important news. Amber came home Wednesday night and she made it through the hurricane along with the rest of us. She's doing great and eating well. I'm so glad. I'm on proud Auntie!
This weekend was alright for the most part. My power didn't go out once and it was kind of a disappointment. I was really hoping for some exciting rumbles and stuff. I got nothing. That what I get for living in boring DC. ha ha ha. Actually I'm very blessed. My power didn't go out once and my loved ones are all in one piece. I can't complain. God continues to bless me. (Like he would ever stop) Thank you, Lord.
In other news....I saw Once Upon a Time in Mexico. It was definately a good movie. I liked it alot. The ends got too tied up too quickly at the end and there were some story lines that weren't developed too well but other than that. It was awesome. I hightly recommend it.
AND other than that I'm at work again after a good four day weekend. It was heavenly. TTFN
Oh yeah, baby. Here is another obsession to add to my collection. His new song Suga Suga is sooo dreamy. I love it. Not to metion he has my husband Frankie J on it as well. Lovely lovely. You can see the video on Launch.com and you can listen to the song on the website. I strongly and highly recommend it!
In more important news. Amber came home Wednesday night and she made it through the hurricane along with the rest of us. She's doing great and eating well. I'm so glad. I'm on proud Auntie!
This weekend was alright for the most part. My power didn't go out once and it was kind of a disappointment. I was really hoping for some exciting rumbles and stuff. I got nothing. That what I get for living in boring DC. ha ha ha. Actually I'm very blessed. My power didn't go out once and my loved ones are all in one piece. I can't complain. God continues to bless me. (Like he would ever stop) Thank you, Lord.
In other news....I saw Once Upon a Time in Mexico. It was definately a good movie. I liked it alot. The ends got too tied up too quickly at the end and there were some story lines that weren't developed too well but other than that. It was awesome. I hightly recommend it.
AND other than that I'm at work again after a good four day weekend. It was heavenly. TTFN
Wednesday, September 17
Your Free Sample Astrology Report: "Venus Trine Saturn with an orb between 1 and 3 degrees
While you may not be emotionally demonstrative or sentimental, you love deeply, lastingly and loyally. You may be strongly drawn to people either much older or much younger than you are. Love, for you, has always entailed an enormous amount of responsibility.
Venus Opposition Uranus with an orb between 3 and 5 degrees
You need to be close and you need to be free. This is a major life conflict which has always created complications for you in close personal relationships. One manifestation of this may be a tendency to pursue the unavailable or the unreliable.
Venus Quincunx Neptune with an orb between 1 and 3 degrees
Love for you is often a 'divine discontent'. You are so romantic and idealistic it is difficult for any mortal person to sustain your interest without disappointing you. Your need to idealize loved ones may make you susceptible to illusion."
While you may not be emotionally demonstrative or sentimental, you love deeply, lastingly and loyally. You may be strongly drawn to people either much older or much younger than you are. Love, for you, has always entailed an enormous amount of responsibility.
Venus Opposition Uranus with an orb between 3 and 5 degrees
You need to be close and you need to be free. This is a major life conflict which has always created complications for you in close personal relationships. One manifestation of this may be a tendency to pursue the unavailable or the unreliable.
Venus Quincunx Neptune with an orb between 1 and 3 degrees
Love for you is often a 'divine discontent'. You are so romantic and idealistic it is difficult for any mortal person to sustain your interest without disappointing you. Your need to idealize loved ones may make you susceptible to illusion."
Saturday, September 13
MY NEW WEB DOMAIN
Just because I am a nerd I recently (yesterday) purchased my own domain name. It's kissmyfrybread as opposed to the Frybread zone which I previously owned because it was a little misleading to me. I love frybread but the site has nothing to do with frybread. I believe kissmyfrybread is a better statement and suits me better because you you wanna hate you can just kiss.....well you know. Anyhow. I have more space and stuff so I can post more content. I am so siced. Anyhow. This is turning out to be a grand day. Peace and Frybread grease.
Just because I am a nerd I recently (yesterday) purchased my own domain name. It's kissmyfrybread as opposed to the Frybread zone which I previously owned because it was a little misleading to me. I love frybread but the site has nothing to do with frybread. I believe kissmyfrybread is a better statement and suits me better because you you wanna hate you can just kiss.....well you know. Anyhow. I have more space and stuff so I can post more content. I am so siced. Anyhow. This is turning out to be a grand day. Peace and Frybread grease.
My HOMEPAGE
Well she is here! Amber Patricia Lynne Olin has arrived. She came @ about 1:15pm today and she was 181/2 inches and 5 lbs exactly. She is beautiful and I couldn't be happier! I'm so excited. I'm an Auntie again. More to come later. I just wanted to post the good news.
Well she is here! Amber Patricia Lynne Olin has arrived. She came @ about 1:15pm today and she was 181/2 inches and 5 lbs exactly. She is beautiful and I couldn't be happier! I'm so excited. I'm an Auntie again. More to come later. I just wanted to post the good news.
Monday, September 8
My boyfriend,Frankie J
Sexy! Sexy! Sexy! The word is "Sexy". I absolutely love Frankie J. He is so good looking. He reminds me of one on my x-men. (Mr. Man) And that song is so smooth. I love it. "Don't wanna try." If you haven't heard it then you have to click the link about and check it out. It's sweet. It's kinda old but it's a classic to me. Definately on my top ten.
Anyways, I had a good weekend. Friday, I had a little too much fun but ended up @ the bomb-ass Hotel Helix. It was fun. It was like a mini-vactaion for me. I got pampered and just being in that hotel is fun. I can't wait to go back. I think I might make that a monthly ritual since I'm working an all. Saturday I didnt' do much. Went window shopping basically and OH! I seen Pirates of the Caribbean. It was awesome! I have no complaints about that movie. And I'm usually very critical! I love Johnny Depp. He's great in this movie. I can't wait to see him in Once Upon a time in Mexico. Sunday, I just chilled with mi padre for a bit. We wen to Adams Morgan days. It was great. I got a slice of pizza the size of my chest for 3.50. And I went to mass with Benji. That was cool too. I haven't been to Church in a long while and I've never been to Catholic church so it was definately an experience. Anyways, that's all for now. I may write more laters on more exciting subjects. Until then ttfn.
Sexy! Sexy! Sexy! The word is "Sexy". I absolutely love Frankie J. He is so good looking. He reminds me of one on my x-men. (Mr. Man) And that song is so smooth. I love it. "Don't wanna try." If you haven't heard it then you have to click the link about and check it out. It's sweet. It's kinda old but it's a classic to me. Definately on my top ten.
Anyways, I had a good weekend. Friday, I had a little too much fun but ended up @ the bomb-ass Hotel Helix. It was fun. It was like a mini-vactaion for me. I got pampered and just being in that hotel is fun. I can't wait to go back. I think I might make that a monthly ritual since I'm working an all. Saturday I didnt' do much. Went window shopping basically and OH! I seen Pirates of the Caribbean. It was awesome! I have no complaints about that movie. And I'm usually very critical! I love Johnny Depp. He's great in this movie. I can't wait to see him in Once Upon a time in Mexico. Sunday, I just chilled with mi padre for a bit. We wen to Adams Morgan days. It was great. I got a slice of pizza the size of my chest for 3.50. And I went to mass with Benji. That was cool too. I haven't been to Church in a long while and I've never been to Catholic church so it was definately an experience. Anyways, that's all for now. I may write more laters on more exciting subjects. Until then ttfn.
Wednesday, September 3
MobProject.com - Welcome To The Family.
Flash Mobs! The newest thing to fizzle out fast. Just when it comes to DC, it fizzles out. I'll be lucky if I can get into at least one before it's completely dead. Flash Mobs, in case you've never heard, are a group of strangers getting together to do random strange things and then randomly leaving like nothing ever happened. It's too cool to be true. I barely missed the last one and it was a couple blocks from my house! I am still very disappointed. I am very bitter.
Right now I'm sitting listening to my little Yahoo! Launch radio staion tuned into the Alternative Adult station trying to stay awake. I'm so tired. I need to get my life together still. I finally got 6 loads of laundry done late last night (3 months later...)which is the reason I'm tired today. I still need to get to the sheets, towels and my darks tonight. That's another 6 loads itself. Doing laundry to me is both fun as it is funny. My laundry room has 12 washing machines and five "good" dryers. By good, I mean the big ones you can shove two washed loads in. It's fun to me because I get some weird satisfaction in sorting things. You can even ask my sister about times I "fix" the candy in the grocery check out or in the magazine aisle. I just like to sort. I'll sort out Gummie Bears for fun. (Note to self: Discuss with the therapist.)
Anyways, back to the joys of the laundry room...When I go down to do laundry I have a "system" that's kinda selfish but it works. It gets my laundry done in record time, saves me money and I get the number of washers and dryers I want. It goes like this...
When I'm washing I always do it when there are at least 2 washers free. When the wash is down I'm already ready with my next two loads and get them going. Ususally by this time there is at least one dryer available. So I put my loads in the dryer and put extra quarters, adding time to the machine. By the time my second loads are done my first loads are done and I have time to spare on the dryer. I have my next to dirty loads ready to go in the washers, I take the dry loads out and put in the next washed loads in. I add more quarters to add time to the remaining time and voila! A never ending system that ensures I get my washers and dryer without having to wait in line for others. (Plus, I save 50 cents not having to start a new dryer) If anyone wants to dispute my use of that dryer again my arguement is that I still have time on the dryer and get to use my unused time. Oh yeah, I'm good. I'm not totally a total Fixico (heartless) when it comes to the dryers though. I'll always give up my dryer for the elderly. Always respect your elders.
And if your wondering where's the funny, I guess the funny part is watching people get really pissed and up tight about laundry dryers. Fighting and racing to get theirs in first. I don't feel bad because there are also 6 other dryers to use. The just aren't as big as the "good" ones. There are some really ruthless people when it comes to doing your laundry. One time, I just happend to be in the laundry room when this woman just started taking my stuff out of a dryer with minutes still on it. I was mortified. Oh well. What some people will do for clean clothes.... C'est la vie.
Flash Mobs! The newest thing to fizzle out fast. Just when it comes to DC, it fizzles out. I'll be lucky if I can get into at least one before it's completely dead. Flash Mobs, in case you've never heard, are a group of strangers getting together to do random strange things and then randomly leaving like nothing ever happened. It's too cool to be true. I barely missed the last one and it was a couple blocks from my house! I am still very disappointed. I am very bitter.
Right now I'm sitting listening to my little Yahoo! Launch radio staion tuned into the Alternative Adult station trying to stay awake. I'm so tired. I need to get my life together still. I finally got 6 loads of laundry done late last night (3 months later...)which is the reason I'm tired today. I still need to get to the sheets, towels and my darks tonight. That's another 6 loads itself. Doing laundry to me is both fun as it is funny. My laundry room has 12 washing machines and five "good" dryers. By good, I mean the big ones you can shove two washed loads in. It's fun to me because I get some weird satisfaction in sorting things. You can even ask my sister about times I "fix" the candy in the grocery check out or in the magazine aisle. I just like to sort. I'll sort out Gummie Bears for fun. (Note to self: Discuss with the therapist.)
Anyways, back to the joys of the laundry room...When I go down to do laundry I have a "system" that's kinda selfish but it works. It gets my laundry done in record time, saves me money and I get the number of washers and dryers I want. It goes like this...
When I'm washing I always do it when there are at least 2 washers free. When the wash is down I'm already ready with my next two loads and get them going. Ususally by this time there is at least one dryer available. So I put my loads in the dryer and put extra quarters, adding time to the machine. By the time my second loads are done my first loads are done and I have time to spare on the dryer. I have my next to dirty loads ready to go in the washers, I take the dry loads out and put in the next washed loads in. I add more quarters to add time to the remaining time and voila! A never ending system that ensures I get my washers and dryer without having to wait in line for others. (Plus, I save 50 cents not having to start a new dryer) If anyone wants to dispute my use of that dryer again my arguement is that I still have time on the dryer and get to use my unused time. Oh yeah, I'm good. I'm not totally a total Fixico (heartless) when it comes to the dryers though. I'll always give up my dryer for the elderly. Always respect your elders.
And if your wondering where's the funny, I guess the funny part is watching people get really pissed and up tight about laundry dryers. Fighting and racing to get theirs in first. I don't feel bad because there are also 6 other dryers to use. The just aren't as big as the "good" ones. There are some really ruthless people when it comes to doing your laundry. One time, I just happend to be in the laundry room when this woman just started taking my stuff out of a dryer with minutes still on it. I was mortified. Oh well. What some people will do for clean clothes.... C'est la vie.
Tuesday, September 2
http://www.chevelleinc.com/
I am almost obsessed with Chevelle. I could easily get there quick. I love the red. I don't know why. I'm getting into this rock phase in my life. I love hip-hop and r&b. But sometimes I just feel like rock is feelin me like I'm feelin it. It's been a slow process. My sister's been into it for a while. And now I'm just like...yeah, I can dig it. And the new Indigenous CD is out. I listened to the first cut off of it. It's pretty good. I'm not really into the song lyrics but definately into the feeling. C'mon Susie. I felt it in the end. Plus, I still wouldn't mind being his guitar for a day. Man that boy can play. Sorry I've be out of it for a while. My best friend Benji moved back last week and it's been an experince ever since. I missed him alot. I'm glad he's back. I finally have a partner that's willing to go to clubs even though he's only in the the VIP scene. I just wanna dance. House, hip-hop, New-wave, whatever. It's kewl. I get my first real paycheck this week. Finally, I can buy my own clothes! I can pay my own bills! I can be a responsible adult! Hooray! I'll scribb more laters. I just wanted to jot a few lines to check in. L8ter.
I am almost obsessed with Chevelle. I could easily get there quick. I love the red. I don't know why. I'm getting into this rock phase in my life. I love hip-hop and r&b. But sometimes I just feel like rock is feelin me like I'm feelin it. It's been a slow process. My sister's been into it for a while. And now I'm just like...yeah, I can dig it. And the new Indigenous CD is out. I listened to the first cut off of it. It's pretty good. I'm not really into the song lyrics but definately into the feeling. C'mon Susie. I felt it in the end. Plus, I still wouldn't mind being his guitar for a day. Man that boy can play. Sorry I've be out of it for a while. My best friend Benji moved back last week and it's been an experince ever since. I missed him alot. I'm glad he's back. I finally have a partner that's willing to go to clubs even though he's only in the the VIP scene. I just wanna dance. House, hip-hop, New-wave, whatever. It's kewl. I get my first real paycheck this week. Finally, I can buy my own clothes! I can pay my own bills! I can be a responsible adult! Hooray! I'll scribb more laters. I just wanted to jot a few lines to check in. L8ter.
Thursday, August 14
Well it's Thursday...What a thursday. I love it. My ex's parents left late last night and I have to admit I was very sad. I love those guys just like my own parents. They've taken care of me and given me advice. He's mom was so sweet. I know I'll always be welcome in there home no matter what. Despite the fact that me and their son aren't exactly on speaking terms. Which by the way he did call today. It was a brief conversation but it was good. Knowing that someone you care about is alright and they don't think your a total ass is always good. It was mostly small talk "Hi, How you doin?, Life sucks, I'm okay though...." Nothing major and of all the perfect things to happen my phone dies. It's for the best I suppose. Everything happens for a reason. It's nice to know he still cares a little. C'est la vie.
Anyways, I wanna go to the fair tonight and ride rides until I puke. (Good visual) Tomorrow I get to be a door guard for sometraings I'm involved in. I guess since I'll be alone with my thoughts I could start writing my book. Maybe....we'll see. Saturday hopefully I'll get to get some sleep! Lately, I've been feeling like 6 hours just ain't enought anymore. (Note to self: Get some sleep) Anyways...that's all for now. It's time to go home. Later Katz.
Anyways, I wanna go to the fair tonight and ride rides until I puke. (Good visual) Tomorrow I get to be a door guard for sometraings I'm involved in. I guess since I'll be alone with my thoughts I could start writing my book. Maybe....we'll see. Saturday hopefully I'll get to get some sleep! Lately, I've been feeling like 6 hours just ain't enought anymore. (Note to self: Get some sleep) Anyways...that's all for now. It's time to go home. Later Katz.
Monday, August 11
Well today's the day I started my new job. It's so exciting. It's a government job...it pays well...and I get health bennies! Oh yeah. Things are going okay. Still trying to maintain the day to day. Still having a good time being single. My ex's parents are in town to see me and I can't wait. They should be here sometime this evening. tick tock tick tock....
Other than that I went to a Foam Party on Friday. Oh yeah and I met the Black Eyed Peas! It was awesome. I kicked myself for not having my camera or a pen but it was good just to meet them. My friend was with me so I have proof! LOL Anyways that was all my excitement. I'll write more laters....
Other than that I went to a Foam Party on Friday. Oh yeah and I met the Black Eyed Peas! It was awesome. I kicked myself for not having my camera or a pen but it was good just to meet them. My friend was with me so I have proof! LOL Anyways that was all my excitement. I'll write more laters....
Monday, July 21
Here I am. Still living and still alive. Grand for me. I keep going around in circles trying to figure out why I want to f-up my life so badly. With everything that I've been through and all the things that I've done in the past couple months. Why don't I want to be happier? I've put my self in danger many times and in the processes of trying to be right about being a worthless f-up I even put my friend in danger as well. She is fine. There is a live no physical or emotional harm done. Everything turned out okay. But when I think of all the things that could have happened to her...........
Who the f*ck am I to be so selfish and stupid. People trust me with they're most precious possesions and I just take it so much for granted. It's completely amazing to me that every opportunity that I have taken I have managed to make it ugly. Why? So that I can continue to be right about being a screw up. Human's loving being right. I love being right. And it just so happens that I am good at being right about this. So either I can stop it now and actually take action in doing something with my life. Or I can continue making small "efforts" so that nobody notices I'm not really doing anything.....
Maybe that's not entirely true. I do do somethings. I go to work. I really do make efforts. I'm not entirely selfish. Thing aren't exactly going to get better for me if I don't start stepping up thought. I need to follow throughwithwhat I said I was going to follow through with I say I am going to do. I need to take it one day a time. I need to not dwell in my feelings about what sh*tty person I am. I need to love myself as if this were the last day I have to give. It hurts and it's sad to love but what makes love great is that it's also joyful and awesome to love and be loved.
Who the f*ck am I to be so selfish and stupid. People trust me with they're most precious possesions and I just take it so much for granted. It's completely amazing to me that every opportunity that I have taken I have managed to make it ugly. Why? So that I can continue to be right about being a screw up. Human's loving being right. I love being right. And it just so happens that I am good at being right about this. So either I can stop it now and actually take action in doing something with my life. Or I can continue making small "efforts" so that nobody notices I'm not really doing anything.....
Maybe that's not entirely true. I do do somethings. I go to work. I really do make efforts. I'm not entirely selfish. Thing aren't exactly going to get better for me if I don't start stepping up thought. I need to follow throughwithwhat I said I was going to follow through with I say I am going to do. I need to take it one day a time. I need to not dwell in my feelings about what sh*tty person I am. I need to love myself as if this were the last day I have to give. It hurts and it's sad to love but what makes love great is that it's also joyful and awesome to love and be loved.
Wednesday, July 2
Here I am. Sorry I took so long. I just wanted to say hello. I will actually sit down someday and tell you the enchanting story of the wedding day but for now I have to be brief. So much has happened thus far....Living with my ex-boyfriend for 2 week was a trip!...and all the other things that went on. So stay tuned and I'll be back with all the juicy details.
Ciao!
Ciao!
Wednesday, June 18
Tuesday, June 17
Indigenous Rocks Indigenous is comming to town on Wednesday and I wanna go so badly! I luv luv luv me some indigenous. It would have even been better if I could have went with a certain someone. I know he likes Indigenous too...but c'est la vie. 5 more days to go until my sister is hitched off. Peter better have all his ponies ready. They better not be Shetlands either! LOL One more day until my crazy mother gets here. I can't wait. more l8rs
Monday, June 16
Just a few quick thoughts to say. My sister is getting married in 6 more days! The world is going mad. My mother is going to be here on Wednesday and tentatively my ex-boyfriend is comming up to be in my sisters wedding playing the flute. That'll be fun. My dress is fixed, I need to get some shoes, find a hair dresser, right a speech, and be a stand for a transformed world at the same time. Whew! It's good to be me. Luv you,
Spring
Spring
Wednesday, June 11
Well here it is...Wednesday. I've had a lot to think about these past couple day and I've come to the realization that I as much as I want to blame my ex-boyfriend for reasons we broke up, I know that I am just as much to blame. I thought about editing the previous entry because of it's bias but instead I will just publicly apologize to him and the rest of the universe. Philip, I am sorry for being a selfish, inconsiderate, insensitive, jerk last week. I want you to know that I did mean all that I said to you but I should have told in a more loving way. I am a human and I do make mistakes. I'm sorry for not letting you be a human as well. I'm sorry for putting your things about your personal life on the internet. It was rude of me to do and I will never do it again. I apolgize for not being honest with you and I want you to know that I forgive you not being honest with me. I know you care about me and would never intentionally try to hurt me. I love you and all I want is for you to be happy. So that's all I'll say for now. I'm writing you a new letter that you'll be getting in a couple days along with the other letters you didn't get, your pictures and whatever else. Please read them. That's my public apology.
Sunday, June 8
Well this week's been an up and down rollercoaster of emotions. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I feel like my best friend died today. I guess a small part of me died today. I went to New York this on Thursday to see Mr. Man. And I was excited. I was finally going to see the guy I've been craving for 3 years in his own environment. It was suppose to be a great week ending. But unfortunately for me, it turned out to be very...sad. Thursday was fine. He was waiting for me at the airport and my heart skipped a beat. And we proceeded to have a great night. We ate at La Nova's which according to him is the home of the best pizza ever. I tried it out and yeah, it was the best pizza I ever had. Then we went back to the place we were staying and went to sleep. (Yeah, no funny business, I swear!) We could have but we had already discussed the merits of being celibate so we didn't. We got close and if I knew that was going to be my last chance ever, I would have chosen differently. The next day wasn't as great. Everything started out okay but ended up being the beginning of the end. His lunch hour got messed up and we rushed around to get some business taken care of and he didn't get to do what he really wanted at lunch time. So then when he got off of work and came back to see me he was pretty tired and fustrated. I was hungry because I hadn't eaten all day. I asked if I could borrow his car to get something to eat and he refused saying that He didn't let anyone borrow his car for any reason. Fine. So I jokingly suggested that I walk and he said immediately said it was probably best for me anyway. (Whatever!) I don't know Buffalo. I don't know where I'm going and there are no sidewalks from where we were staying. At that point I was really insulted and went walking anyway. I walked for a while, getting more angry with every step. After I got something I started back. When I got back I was still pretty upset but thought I could just sleep it off. It's easy to make things seem petty things when the person you want to be with is cuddling next to you. So for a short time I let it go. Then what seemed abrupt to me he got up and started watching tv. It was like all of a sudden he tuned me out. And made me even more upset because here I am, I flew all this way just so I could watch him watch TV? I don't think so. I let it build up because I didn't know what to think. I already knew something was wrong so finally I told him to turn off the tv so we could talk about our relationship. I asked him why he was treating me like that and why he thought I deserved to be treated in such a way. Finally after avoiding the question I just told him to tell me the truth. And boy did I get the truth...the truth was he didn't want to be in a relationship, he didn't want the "Drama", and he didn't want me to be his one. Fine. I finally got the honesty I deserved but was still upset at the fact that he could have told me all this when he knew it instead of leading me on. Letting me think that he really wanted to be with me. Letting me believe that me and him could actually be happy together. Yeah, I said things out of fustration and I could've said them in a more loving way but I still meant ever word. I really hope he takes the time to think about it. Anyway we argued for a while and finally I surrendered to the fact that no matter what I said to him it wouldn't make a difference. He's wall is so high and thick that nothing could get through. He made up his mind up about me a long time ago. And I was foolish to believe anything otherwise. For as long as I've know him, it's always been this way. As soon as we start to get close he always pulls away. Not just once or twice but several occasions. And he assured me just a couple weeks before this that that wouldn't be the case this time. Gullible me, I believed him. I wanted to believe it so badly that I went against my better judgement. That's the way it's always been and the that's the way I've always felt. I always wondered why would he chose me? What made me so special that he would even consider making all these plans with me? He'll never tell me and I'll never know. On top of that he compared me to the other "one" in his life. The real one. The one that's not me and I will never be. I deserve better anyway. I deserve a guy that want to please me as much as I can please him. I deserve a guy that is honest and truthful. I deserve a guy that makes ME feel special. I only ask for what I am already willing to give and do.
And I don't mean to blame him for everything. It's not his fault. It's not his fault at all. It's mine for wanting somethig so badly. Everytime I think that life couldn't get any better in my love life, the tide does a 180 and I'm always back where I started. Alone. And I don't know why I could ever begin to believe that he would change and treat me differently. He's always been selfish. It's like I was suppose to just be there to serve him. I gave him massages and told him how I felt. I was happy. I did everything he asked. But when it came to me asking him for something it was almost like pulling teeth. That's the way it's always been. It's always been about what I was willing to do for him and for me not want anything in return.
We endend the night in a good way I suppose. And the next day I left early back to D.C. And I must say I've been feeling like crap all day. I suppose those are the breaks. I knew better than to open my heart up again. But I did it anyway. Today he even had the audacity to blow me off! Nice. Anyway. Such is my life and I'm still alive. God still continues to bless me and it happened this way for a reason. I'm still going to miss him and I'm still going to love him but I am praying that I never let myself be that nieve again. I just gotta keep on going and get my life together.
I must say though...I've thought strongly about being a lesbian and now I'm highly considering it. *shugs*
What to do...what to do...
And I don't mean to blame him for everything. It's not his fault. It's not his fault at all. It's mine for wanting somethig so badly. Everytime I think that life couldn't get any better in my love life, the tide does a 180 and I'm always back where I started. Alone. And I don't know why I could ever begin to believe that he would change and treat me differently. He's always been selfish. It's like I was suppose to just be there to serve him. I gave him massages and told him how I felt. I was happy. I did everything he asked. But when it came to me asking him for something it was almost like pulling teeth. That's the way it's always been. It's always been about what I was willing to do for him and for me not want anything in return.
We endend the night in a good way I suppose. And the next day I left early back to D.C. And I must say I've been feeling like crap all day. I suppose those are the breaks. I knew better than to open my heart up again. But I did it anyway. Today he even had the audacity to blow me off! Nice. Anyway. Such is my life and I'm still alive. God still continues to bless me and it happened this way for a reason. I'm still going to miss him and I'm still going to love him but I am praying that I never let myself be that nieve again. I just gotta keep on going and get my life together.
I must say though...I've thought strongly about being a lesbian and now I'm highly considering it. *shugs*
What to do...what to do...
Tuesday, June 3
At least I said hello in May....hmmm...that was nice of me.... LOL
Anyways, it's the beginning of June. I can't believe it. In exactly 19 more days my sister will be married. And in exactly 4 months she''l be having a baby girl. I can't wait for this girl to come. I can't wait to meet her.
As for everything else in my life. The man of my dreams hasn't called me yet and I am wondering what the heck is going on. (Where you at Mr. Man?) He's comming to see me for sure at the end of the month but I was thinking about going to see him this weekend BUT since he hasn't called I haven't been able to get my ticket AND If I don't get it by tomorrow then I may not be comming at all. Did you get my message that I left on your machine on Sunday? I know you read this so you better smarten up and call!!! he he he... J/K Really though call me.
Other than that life is peachy keen. I love it and I can't imagine being more happier to be alive. I am truely blessed.
Peace out for now
Anyways, it's the beginning of June. I can't believe it. In exactly 19 more days my sister will be married. And in exactly 4 months she''l be having a baby girl. I can't wait for this girl to come. I can't wait to meet her.
As for everything else in my life. The man of my dreams hasn't called me yet and I am wondering what the heck is going on. (Where you at Mr. Man?) He's comming to see me for sure at the end of the month but I was thinking about going to see him this weekend BUT since he hasn't called I haven't been able to get my ticket AND If I don't get it by tomorrow then I may not be comming at all. Did you get my message that I left on your machine on Sunday? I know you read this so you better smarten up and call!!! he he he... J/K Really though call me.
Other than that life is peachy keen. I love it and I can't imagine being more happier to be alive. I am truely blessed.
Peace out for now
Tuesday, May 27
Tuesday, April 29
My life, My life....such is my life.
So Easter was great and the expression on Tris's face was priceless. I loved it! I had a great time. The Monday after I met this incredible person with thee most gorgeous soul I have ever known. I won't say to much because I'm still trying to figure out whats going on here but ever since this person came into my life things are change and becoming more I don't know. Too much of a coincedence. The day after I met this incredible person 3 people randomly call. And it was really weird. I'd like to divulge details but I just can't do it right now. Anyways what I can talk about right now is New York.
Aah...New York, New York....how I love thee.
Anybody who really knows me knows that I love New York. I went up there this weekend to FINALLY see Les Miserables. And the show was great. Fantastic and more that I ever expected. I cried from beginning to end and it was fabulous! Again anyone who really knows me knows how much and how long I've waited to see that show. If you are able to get tickets to go, you MUST go. I HIGHLY recommend it. And if you have no one to go with...just give me a call. *wink* Other than that I just walked around New York and just took it all in. Sunday was a perfect day. It was beautiful. Hardly any clouds in the sky and I was in heaven. I saw breakdancing, I saw talented ballet dancers, singers, everything....Only in New York. It was amazing. Oh yeah, plus this weekend I finally accepted the fact that I don't like to be called by my first name and anyone whom I meet from this day forward will know me as Spring. That is my name. It may sound trival but believe me I have been battling with my name for years and this weekend, thru talking with others, I've fully accepted that my name is Spring and I hate to be called Katie. And so anyways, the day that I finally accepted this I'm walking around New York alone and this guy comes up to me thinking that I live there. And the question he asked me was so bizarre because....I'm getting ahead of myself. He asked me "Do you know where Spring is?" Not do you know where spring street is or can you tell me how to get to spring street but "Do you know where Spring is?" And I was at a loss for words. Of all the people he could have asked and of all the streets in New York. That was the question he asked me. Of course I told him I don't live there and that was that. Strange. So I got to really thinking about it. Do I know where she is and basically Do I know where I am. And not physically but where am I at in my life and where am I in the world. I still have alot of thinking to do on that but that was an excellent question. But that night I cried alot thinking about it. I'll write about it when I figure it all out in my head but for now. Ciao.
So Easter was great and the expression on Tris's face was priceless. I loved it! I had a great time. The Monday after I met this incredible person with thee most gorgeous soul I have ever known. I won't say to much because I'm still trying to figure out whats going on here but ever since this person came into my life things are change and becoming more I don't know. Too much of a coincedence. The day after I met this incredible person 3 people randomly call. And it was really weird. I'd like to divulge details but I just can't do it right now. Anyways what I can talk about right now is New York.
Aah...New York, New York....how I love thee.
Anybody who really knows me knows that I love New York. I went up there this weekend to FINALLY see Les Miserables. And the show was great. Fantastic and more that I ever expected. I cried from beginning to end and it was fabulous! Again anyone who really knows me knows how much and how long I've waited to see that show. If you are able to get tickets to go, you MUST go. I HIGHLY recommend it. And if you have no one to go with...just give me a call. *wink* Other than that I just walked around New York and just took it all in. Sunday was a perfect day. It was beautiful. Hardly any clouds in the sky and I was in heaven. I saw breakdancing, I saw talented ballet dancers, singers, everything....Only in New York. It was amazing. Oh yeah, plus this weekend I finally accepted the fact that I don't like to be called by my first name and anyone whom I meet from this day forward will know me as Spring. That is my name. It may sound trival but believe me I have been battling with my name for years and this weekend, thru talking with others, I've fully accepted that my name is Spring and I hate to be called Katie. And so anyways, the day that I finally accepted this I'm walking around New York alone and this guy comes up to me thinking that I live there. And the question he asked me was so bizarre because....I'm getting ahead of myself. He asked me "Do you know where Spring is?" Not do you know where spring street is or can you tell me how to get to spring street but "Do you know where Spring is?" And I was at a loss for words. Of all the people he could have asked and of all the streets in New York. That was the question he asked me. Of course I told him I don't live there and that was that. Strange. So I got to really thinking about it. Do I know where she is and basically Do I know where I am. And not physically but where am I at in my life and where am I in the world. I still have alot of thinking to do on that but that was an excellent question. But that night I cried alot thinking about it. I'll write about it when I figure it all out in my head but for now. Ciao.
Sunday, April 20
Oh yeah, I'm a dope feen if I EVER thought my dad would find the time to fix the computer. Obviously, he hasn't because I am at my sisters yet again writing in my little diary here. I think the I'll do as much as I can and then if I can't get to all the crap that's a happened to me I promise I will someday. For now I'll just work from today backwards that way, at least you'll know what I am thinking right now as opposed to say a week ago. So yeah, here it goes. Today is easter and I can't wait to get up and see the look on my nephew's face when he see's what the easter bunny has brought him. I think if I am really honest with myself, Easter was always my favorite holiday. It's sorta the same as Christmas. Having to do with Jesus and everything, and it's the excitement of waking up in the morning to see what's in your basket and what a pretty dress you get to wear. With the little shoes with the buckle. And the hat and gloves. Ah yes, those were the days. That's one thing that my mom did well was Easter. And I'll always love her for that. (sigh)
I suppose the big news before this was that my sister is going to have another child. I'm going to be an auntie again. I'm so excited. That's the best part about having a sister. I don't have to give up the grandkids just yet. Kelli's already got it taken care of. I just gotta sit back and enjoy the fruits of her labor...I hope that its a girl. God help us if it is and it's like her mom. But all the same I will be beyond thrilled if it's a girl. I can't wait. I've already scoped out all the things I wanna buy her and what I would like her name to be. But kelli doesn't really appriciate my style so we'll just have to wait and see. The news before that, which is a real funny story, is Kelli's Bridal Shower. It was fun and funny because it's the first and only secret I have ever been able to keep from Kelli. And she was so surprised when she walked through the door and there are all these people yelling surprise to her. We told her it was a shower for he fiance's cousin so she was confused and bewildered. She thought we wasted the good surprise on her. Silly rabbit. It was hillarious. And this was all before we knew about the baby. We had the shower on Sunday and found out about the baby on Monday. Nobody had any idea that she was pregnant. Not even her. The only reason she found out is because she went in for her 3 month depo shot and they told her she was pregnant. She wasn't trying to get pregnant either. It's just that the shot obviously worked. It was joyful and crazy because all my fantasies about a KraZy bachlorette party went out the window. And I don't even want to think about her wedding dress. Ugh! The funny party about finding out was at the shower she had to pee like every 5 minutes. We all just thought that she was becoming an old lady. Turns out it was just a 3 and 1/2 month old fetus....
hmmm....imagine that.
The exciting thing that happened to me before this was exactly a week before when a certain someone came to visit me. And this certain someone I've known for a while now. I was really excited for this person to come because I hadn't see this person in a long time. Obviously, it's a guy so I don't have to say person. It's a guy I know. Anyway, I have craved this guy for a long time and we finally got the chance to spend time together. I was extatic and nervous at the same time because as much as we talk, we never talk about us. Or our relationship. Never. Ever. We just flirt and sometimes talk seriously but never about us. Which was weird. For as long as I've known this guy I've put him up on a pedestal. I've made him more to me than he actually is and in the process I've given him alot that he's never really deserved. And since having my heart broken less than a year ago I've been extra careful not to give soul or my heart away so freely. Yet no matter what I've always given this guy a trust that he's never really earned. And I wasn't totally honest with myself when I agreed to let him comes see me. It was alot of things I didn't do and alot of things that he didn't do that led to the demise of what should've been an incredible weekend. It should've been fun (which the majority of it was) but then it was alot of things it never should've been and that was just awkward. The main thing that I understood to be true in his coming was that he was just my friend. Not my boyfriend. And I know that. But somewhere along the way he's gotten the impression that I'm this complete seductress and that I was going to molest him the moment he got off the plane. Maybe that's not really what he thought but that's the way he acted the whole weekend. And I on the other hand, acted on my semi-best behaviour. I was not going to make a move mainly because of this person's personal beliefs. I was under the impression that he wasn't that kind of guy. Which I'm sure he'd like to think but.... Anyway, so I didn't make any moves. In retrospect, I probably should have done all the things I really wanted to do because the end result would be the same and I would have at least gotten what I wanted. Not that's even what I really wanted from him because it isn't. But since it seems that that's all he was really expecting from me then the weekend would've been alot better for the both of us. I wouldn't have tried to get to know him personally and really if I know that all he really wanted then I wouldn't have asked him to come at all. Things that make me mad about the whole thing is that I asked all the questions about him. I asked the get to know you again questions. Did he ask any questions about me? No. Did he try to get to know me? No. I tried to make him as comfortable as possible, be hospitable, and make sure he was satisfied with his trip. The majoritiy of the time I got what ever you want to do's and If you want to's. It sucked and was bummy. From now on I vow to never let a guy be in charge of my excitement. I vow to say what I want and do it. I don't want to be selfish but hey I'm single and I like being single. I did for a second consider trying to be in another realtionship with him but I know now I can't do it. Why? Top answer being why be intrested in someone whose not intrested in you. I'll always love him for the person he is and I'd never ask him to change just from em because he wouldn't be the person I came to know and love. and because I've been through too much in the past year to put up with some one else's bad self-image of themselves. I swear, he's the most gorgeous native man I've ever had the pleasure of knowing and he acts like he thinks he's ugly. Or that he's not a good person. Or something to that effect. It's just a feeling I have. I could be wrong but that's just what I gather from the situation. I have to get over my own demons first before I can even think about moving into the realm of coupledom again. Y'know I went to a palm reader the other day and she actually told me that I was still in-love with my ex. I was like OMG. I so hope that's not true. I will say yes, to a point I am still in love with my ex. But I will happily blame it on the fact that he is the first guy to actually break my heart and actually the first guy to break up with me. Which really threw me for a loop. I'll talk about that another day. For now, I am just relishing in the fact that I will probably never hear from the guy again because A) he's afraid to fall in love with a sinner like me. B) He just used me, in which case I can easily get over C)He's just a jerk and doesn't want to deal with my feelings or D) He's just not mature enough to be in a realtionship. or E) all of the above. Which brings me back to a quote that I heard once on sex in the city. "Good looking guys aren't great in bed because they never had to be" I will say this is my main theory on why this guy doesn't know how to be in a realtionship. Because he's never had to be good at it being in one. All he's ever had to do (In my case anyway) is look pretty and say the occasional thing to lead me on because that's all I asked of him. Just lead me on. Like my love is worth nothing compared to his. Which is bull. I know how to love someone. And when I do fall in love next time it's going to be with someone who understands me and cares what I think. Someone that wants to know as much about me as I do him. Someone who as in to giving as recieving. Because that's the way that I am. I will not change for anyone again. I suppose my major mistake was just not being me that weekend. I quit smoking, I didn't drink, I didn't go to the club like I wanted to, and I acutally went to bed at a decent hour. All of those things that weren't normally me. I don't resent him for it because he never asked me not to do those things. (Except smoke) So from now I will strive to be what you see is what you get. A beautiful Native woman that smokes, swears, drinks occasionally and loves to dance. That isn't so bad and doesn't make me a bad person, and I resent the fact that I ever let myself believe that I was inadequate somehow. I know I am perfect the way that I am. I deserve unconditional love. Enough of the rambling and bad spelling. I'm off to sleep. Later.
I suppose the big news before this was that my sister is going to have another child. I'm going to be an auntie again. I'm so excited. That's the best part about having a sister. I don't have to give up the grandkids just yet. Kelli's already got it taken care of. I just gotta sit back and enjoy the fruits of her labor...I hope that its a girl. God help us if it is and it's like her mom. But all the same I will be beyond thrilled if it's a girl. I can't wait. I've already scoped out all the things I wanna buy her and what I would like her name to be. But kelli doesn't really appriciate my style so we'll just have to wait and see. The news before that, which is a real funny story, is Kelli's Bridal Shower. It was fun and funny because it's the first and only secret I have ever been able to keep from Kelli. And she was so surprised when she walked through the door and there are all these people yelling surprise to her. We told her it was a shower for he fiance's cousin so she was confused and bewildered. She thought we wasted the good surprise on her. Silly rabbit. It was hillarious. And this was all before we knew about the baby. We had the shower on Sunday and found out about the baby on Monday. Nobody had any idea that she was pregnant. Not even her. The only reason she found out is because she went in for her 3 month depo shot and they told her she was pregnant. She wasn't trying to get pregnant either. It's just that the shot obviously worked. It was joyful and crazy because all my fantasies about a KraZy bachlorette party went out the window. And I don't even want to think about her wedding dress. Ugh! The funny party about finding out was at the shower she had to pee like every 5 minutes. We all just thought that she was becoming an old lady. Turns out it was just a 3 and 1/2 month old fetus....
hmmm....imagine that.
The exciting thing that happened to me before this was exactly a week before when a certain someone came to visit me. And this certain someone I've known for a while now. I was really excited for this person to come because I hadn't see this person in a long time. Obviously, it's a guy so I don't have to say person. It's a guy I know. Anyway, I have craved this guy for a long time and we finally got the chance to spend time together. I was extatic and nervous at the same time because as much as we talk, we never talk about us. Or our relationship. Never. Ever. We just flirt and sometimes talk seriously but never about us. Which was weird. For as long as I've known this guy I've put him up on a pedestal. I've made him more to me than he actually is and in the process I've given him alot that he's never really deserved. And since having my heart broken less than a year ago I've been extra careful not to give soul or my heart away so freely. Yet no matter what I've always given this guy a trust that he's never really earned. And I wasn't totally honest with myself when I agreed to let him comes see me. It was alot of things I didn't do and alot of things that he didn't do that led to the demise of what should've been an incredible weekend. It should've been fun (which the majority of it was) but then it was alot of things it never should've been and that was just awkward. The main thing that I understood to be true in his coming was that he was just my friend. Not my boyfriend. And I know that. But somewhere along the way he's gotten the impression that I'm this complete seductress and that I was going to molest him the moment he got off the plane. Maybe that's not really what he thought but that's the way he acted the whole weekend. And I on the other hand, acted on my semi-best behaviour. I was not going to make a move mainly because of this person's personal beliefs. I was under the impression that he wasn't that kind of guy. Which I'm sure he'd like to think but.... Anyway, so I didn't make any moves. In retrospect, I probably should have done all the things I really wanted to do because the end result would be the same and I would have at least gotten what I wanted. Not that's even what I really wanted from him because it isn't. But since it seems that that's all he was really expecting from me then the weekend would've been alot better for the both of us. I wouldn't have tried to get to know him personally and really if I know that all he really wanted then I wouldn't have asked him to come at all. Things that make me mad about the whole thing is that I asked all the questions about him. I asked the get to know you again questions. Did he ask any questions about me? No. Did he try to get to know me? No. I tried to make him as comfortable as possible, be hospitable, and make sure he was satisfied with his trip. The majoritiy of the time I got what ever you want to do's and If you want to's. It sucked and was bummy. From now on I vow to never let a guy be in charge of my excitement. I vow to say what I want and do it. I don't want to be selfish but hey I'm single and I like being single. I did for a second consider trying to be in another realtionship with him but I know now I can't do it. Why? Top answer being why be intrested in someone whose not intrested in you. I'll always love him for the person he is and I'd never ask him to change just from em because he wouldn't be the person I came to know and love. and because I've been through too much in the past year to put up with some one else's bad self-image of themselves. I swear, he's the most gorgeous native man I've ever had the pleasure of knowing and he acts like he thinks he's ugly. Or that he's not a good person. Or something to that effect. It's just a feeling I have. I could be wrong but that's just what I gather from the situation. I have to get over my own demons first before I can even think about moving into the realm of coupledom again. Y'know I went to a palm reader the other day and she actually told me that I was still in-love with my ex. I was like OMG. I so hope that's not true. I will say yes, to a point I am still in love with my ex. But I will happily blame it on the fact that he is the first guy to actually break my heart and actually the first guy to break up with me. Which really threw me for a loop. I'll talk about that another day. For now, I am just relishing in the fact that I will probably never hear from the guy again because A) he's afraid to fall in love with a sinner like me. B) He just used me, in which case I can easily get over C)He's just a jerk and doesn't want to deal with my feelings or D) He's just not mature enough to be in a realtionship. or E) all of the above. Which brings me back to a quote that I heard once on sex in the city. "Good looking guys aren't great in bed because they never had to be" I will say this is my main theory on why this guy doesn't know how to be in a realtionship. Because he's never had to be good at it being in one. All he's ever had to do (In my case anyway) is look pretty and say the occasional thing to lead me on because that's all I asked of him. Just lead me on. Like my love is worth nothing compared to his. Which is bull. I know how to love someone. And when I do fall in love next time it's going to be with someone who understands me and cares what I think. Someone that wants to know as much about me as I do him. Someone who as in to giving as recieving. Because that's the way that I am. I will not change for anyone again. I suppose my major mistake was just not being me that weekend. I quit smoking, I didn't drink, I didn't go to the club like I wanted to, and I acutally went to bed at a decent hour. All of those things that weren't normally me. I don't resent him for it because he never asked me not to do those things. (Except smoke) So from now I will strive to be what you see is what you get. A beautiful Native woman that smokes, swears, drinks occasionally and loves to dance. That isn't so bad and doesn't make me a bad person, and I resent the fact that I ever let myself believe that I was inadequate somehow. I know I am perfect the way that I am. I deserve unconditional love. Enough of the rambling and bad spelling. I'm off to sleep. Later.
Saturday, March 22
Well here I am pismo beach! and all the clams I can eat... Nah not really. I'm just living life and I am finally back in Washington DC from a looooong and drawn out trip. And pictures to prove it! Since I've been home I've done jury duty, gotten my bride's maid dress, watched my nephew, and that's about it. I'll finally have another birthday soon. *winces* I can hardly wait. I don't know why I feel like 23 is so old. I know in reality it's not but it just "feels" that way. Y'know? Oh well, someday I'll get over it. I am down to one ciggie every couple days so I'm doing good on that. I'm taking meds for my depression. And It's comming along nicely I must say...
I've lost like 5 pounds so far so I got to hop to it if I want to lose at least 10 more before the wedding. And that's a whole other thing....It's comming soon. Scary...but fun. More laters. I'm finally getting my computer hooked up at home so I don't have to use my sisters anymore. So I'll write all about my adventures when I get the time. l8er.
I've lost like 5 pounds so far so I got to hop to it if I want to lose at least 10 more before the wedding. And that's a whole other thing....It's comming soon. Scary...but fun. More laters. I'm finally getting my computer hooked up at home so I don't have to use my sisters anymore. So I'll write all about my adventures when I get the time. l8er.
Thursday, January 2
Dang, I can never find the time to write in these things...but here I am another NEW year. I've been traveling way too much in the past couple months. I have even found closure with my former significant other and still friends with another. What the hell am I doing? I don't know but for know I'm living it up in Idaho trying to make sense of it all still. Hopefully I'll get some time soon to get it all straight. For now...my resolutions are as follows. Quit smoking (so much), Gradually stop drinking, get over being bitter, lose 20 lbs. this year. Smile more. and STOP TAKING LIFE SO SERIOUSLY! Peace.
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