Friday, October 31

Where I spend my time....Buzz Message Board

Yep. This is where I spend most of my brain cells and time. It's a message board for people that like Techno/House/Whatever. Plus, you get a discount to the coolest club in DC if you post at least 10 times a week. It's a place to vent, a place to laugh, and a place to learn interesting useless knowledge. I love it.

:Sub-change: Lately, I've been having weird dreams about one of my ex's. I know everyone does but this particular one seems to be Haunting me lately. When I was walking out of the store a couple weeks ago I swear he was walking straight toward me and my heart lept in my throat. And before that I happen to hear someone with a voice just like his and his laugh behind me. This is all strange because he's like a million miles away and has no other business in DC. There's no way he'd come here unless it was for church or something. (Which is how I met him in the first place) Anyways, he was online today and when I saw his name light up it freaked me out. We don't talk anymore because I don't know why. It could be alot of things but bottom line is we don't communicate. I know that's not odd for some but it's odd for me. It's just bothers me I suppose. I miss him alot. Oh wellz....boo hoo for me.

Anyways, Happy Halloween y'all. Here a card for all of y'all!

It's the least I can do for the Holidayz. Stay safe and if you're in DC call 1-800-200-TAXI for a free ride home. Have a great weekend and take care y'all.

Thursday, October 30

Welcome to NewsOK.com

OU BABY! OU/OSU game on Saturday! R U Ready! It's time to represent. OU all the way!

Friday, October 24

I jacked up my blog on purpose. I just can't get it to where I want to be. I don't want to host it from my site because it takes too much of my space and doing it here puts that big ol banner at the top. Which is fine but thats usually were my buttons are. So either I change my format...(Again) or I just play around. So I guess I'm playing around cause I'm too lazy to do another format. Whoa to me.

Anyways, I'm heading down to the passport office on Monday. It's kinda cutting it short but I'm going to pray hard everyday that my passort gets here on time. I'm so excited. It's really unbelievable to me that I am actually going to Paris. I mean. I've always dreamed about it. Ever since the fourth grade. You know how you say things like that. I'm going to be president" "I'm going to the moon" To me it's like one of those things. Something that wasn't very probable. But it's here and I'm going. I only wish I could take my best friend Stephanie. I want her to go but it's kinda a family only type of thing. The only crazy thing about this trip is that I am going with my ex-boyfriends parents. They are the most generous and nicest people I've ever met. And they love me to death. I love them too. I would do anything for them. They've come to see me twice this year. Just to see me. It's a really different situation. Just not one that many can relate to I suppose. It's just crazy to me because....well it's my ex-boyfriends parents. My ex-boyfriend says he doesn't mind. And we're pretty good friends. We respect and love eachother. So there's nothing really awkward there. I don't talk to him everyday but he lives about a thousand miles away. I have no problems with that either. For now everything is fine and I would like to keep it that way.

Anyways, I want to write more but I have a lunch date. Talk to yah'z later.

Thursday, October 23

It's a free confession!

grouphug.us // let it all out

OMG this is the best site I have come across in a long time. It's a free and confidential way to confess your sins and air out your dirty laundry i.e. get that thing out you've been wanting to tell people but have been afraid to say. It's comforting in a way. Definately Check it out. Even if you have nothing to confess. Anyways, Ciao for now.

Wednesday, October 22

pratique ?  Paris par l'Office de Tourisme et des Congr??s de Paris

pratique ? Paris par l'Office de Tourisme et des Congr?s de Paris

OMG! I am going to Paris! I just found out a couple minutes ago. I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...happy! *tear* I can't believe it. My life long wish is finally comming true. I'd write more but I gotta go home. Ciao!

Tuesday, October 21

Tupac : Resurrection

Tupac : Resurrection

Hey y'all. You need to check out the new Tupac Trailer and The song "Runnin" No werdz....just about time. You can listen and see @ the link above. Holla

Monday, October 20

JoAnne Bird - Native American painting online gallery

JoAnne Bird - Native American painting online gallery Beautiful Art! I am buying immediately!


Anyways, Howdy Y'all. It's me finally. I haven't kicked my thoughts for a while and thought today may as well be the day. (Lucky U!) Well alot and no so much has happened in the past couple weeks and months or whatever I don't know if I can remember much. Last week, my adopted parents (Linda and Will) came to see me. It was nice. They are so wonderful. They took me shopping and we went to Arlington Nat. Cem. I had never been to Arlington before so it was a new experience. The whole place is very serene. I got to see where JFK was buried. I got to see the changing of the guards @ the tomb of the unknown soldier. And I got to check out Robert E. Lee's pad. It's was quaint. They had the old slave quarters and all. It was hard for me to really grasp that this was actually part of history and there were actual slaves that lived right where I was standing. I know it seems strange comming from a Native (Just like non-Natives feel when they visit old Indian Bording schools) but it's still true. I mean it's a very significant part of history that I don't necessarily have to relate with but sometime I wish I could. Ya know? I'm still in the transitional phase in my life to where I need to feel like I really don't know who I am at all. I'm just drifting in a subdued sense of being. There has always been a big part of me that really wanted to connect with the my past, and my ancestors so that I could go forward with a sense of duty or purpose. And then one day when I was in my head something came to me...
One thing that I have always been proud of (besides being Native) is the fact that I am a direct decendant of Chief Black Kettle. And sometimes just saying it sounds empty, like I'm bragging that my dad is better than your day or something. Why? Because even though I know this fact about myself what am I really doing with it? Its always fine and good be proud of your lineage (sp?) but I have always felt that I have a special gift that I have not yet fully explored. I am a direct descendant of Chief Black Kettle. What exactly does that mean to me?

Chief Black Kettle was a leader for the Southern Cheyenne that stood with his people under the American Flag because he didn't wish his people to suffer any longer. He was promised that if he stood under that flag then no harm would come to his people. He stood under that flag for peace. Subsequently, nearly 200 people were massacared. Chief Black Kettle managed to escape with a wife. And even though he seen his people killed before his eyes, he still went back and advocated for peace to the council.

So what does all this mean for me? It means I have no right to take my life for granted when my grandfather stood for so much. I didn't have to be here and in some ways maybe I wasn't suppose to be. But my he stood for what he believed in...he stood for there being peace with United State and his people. He stood for his people to thrive and prosper. He stood for his daughters to have children and for their children to have children. And he stood for me having a better life and for my children to grow up in a peaceful world. And for all this, I should be grateful. And I am. Sometimes it's so easy to forget what it really means to be here, In this space, at this moment, in this world. Many other people stood for me to be here, not just him. But knowing this helps me to keep track of my vision for the world and what Iwant accomplish in this lifetime. I may have to be reminded from time to time, but at least I know this much.

Anyways, that's all for now. I didn't mean to go off like that but it's been on my mind for a while. And I wanted to get it down. My website is comming along nicely and I think I might be liking it. (woo hoo!) Feel free to leave comments if you like. If you have any suggestions lemme. know. <-:Peace:->

Sunday, October 5

Risa's Page-Pink Entrance

Risa's Page-Pink Entrance

I was thinking alot tonite. About everything that's been going on. All the things I fail to talk about. And I really want to take the time and write down my thoughts about all the keys points in my life that I dwell on entirely too much. Oh yeah, another kewl page BTW...^^^

Anyway, things like my beautifully failed relationships with Ryan and why my relationship with Mr. Man didn't amount to anything. The only thing that I believe that I can be truely thankful for is the fact that whether I like it or not Benji has always been there consistantly and continues to do so. I'm blessed and cursed at the same time. :-) Anyways. I just wanted to get that down at least because i'ts four in the morning and I've got to sleep. Sweet Dreams.

Friday, October 3

Danna Saunders| starville

Danna Saunders| starville

Thank god it's Friday. The link above it to another awesome site I recently had the pleasure of visiting. It's really kewl you should check it out. She's a model and has some very interesting reads. I highly recommend it.

Anyways, I know I always promise I'll write more later but I mean it. There are some things I want to get done today with the site and I think I'm going to do a quickie make over of the entire site while I still have paint shop pro capabilities. Nothing fancy. I just don't like the colors and the logo. It's just not me. Maybe I'll even go as far as to remove the black...muahahahahaha....I don't know we'll see soon won't we. Oh yeah, and thanks for trying to send the pictures Roach. I don't the net can be fiesty at times. I love you. And to my sister Stephanie. Where are you girl. I know the ball is in my court and I need to call you back. I will tonite I promise. Anyhow. L8ters.

Thursday, October 2

Muahahahahahahah! I did it! It's alive!

Wednesday, October 1

INDIGENOUS-Jive Records

INDIGENOUS-Jive Records

So I bought tickets yesterday to see my most favoritest band ever! Needless to say I was very excited. Don't you think Mato is sexy as hell? I do.



I have the whole story but I'll save it for tomorrow. Peace and Frybread greece.