Brand New Dey.

One day its here...next day its gone. Well I suppose I'll enjoy it for now. Lately at work when I have nothing to preoccupy myself, I've been hanging around CurvyChick.com. Its not bad. Its like myspace for the plus-size diva. The good thing about it is I only have to be myself around them...the bad thing about it is some of the ladies are a little too big for their britches...metaphorically speaking of course. I'm sure that's just women in general but some women just tick me off with their self-loathing and bitching about things that are trivial. I know I bitch about things that in the grand scheme are trival but these guys...idk. I dunno. I need to stop being so judgmental. I've made a friend or two. So I guess I'll shut up about it for now.

What else...My brain is off as usual. I'll write more laters. ;)

Hey again...

I guess they decided to give us a reprieve on blogger at work. Too bad I'm tapped out intellectually. I'm tired. Pooped. Drained. But I'll get over it. I need more sleep. Depression=Insominia=Zombie=more depression. But hey! At least I got my flu shot today! :)

Gheeeey.

Bane started work today and as excited as I should be...I'm holding my breath. Its finally a steady job. A steady pay check. No more of this I might lose my job tomorrow bullshit. Its steady work and steady pay at a very decent wage. Plus, he'll finally have health benefits. FINALLY. I'm happy. But like I said...I'm still holding my breath. I shouldn't...but things with that boy have always been volatile.....blah blah blah...sore subject. I love him and his love for me is unparallel. His in ability to be responsible for himself as well as others irks the shit out of me. Its not that he's not caring...its that he was taught to look out only for yourself. Which doesn't fall in line with the code of family first...

Blah blah...I'll stop. He's trying...he's finally got a steady job. Things will be gianormously better. The have to be. Now if i can only get my life in order...I'll be set for life. Something.

Romantical

So last week I sent a bulletin out regarding the beginning of my romantical night with Bane.  Dude, I almost cried when I opened the door but I ended up giggling like the hottest guy in high school said hi to me.  That boy is amazing x a million.  Posted up against the wall with a tight white t-shirt tucked into some very fit jeans...his thumbs tucked just under a big shiny belt buckle...he smiled up at me with his head cocked to the side and looked from under his staw cowboy hat.  Jesse Katsopolis saying "Have mercy" sprang to mind as I turned to shut and lock the door.  Gawd, I couldn't stop giggling like a school girl.  I don't think anyone has ever affected me the way he does in that outfit. 

He then with gentle force he grabbed me by the waist and gave me an open mouth kiss to die for...literally...to die for...because I melted right then and there.  I felt like I had died and gone to heaven for sure when the smell of his new cologne registered in my nasal passages.  That new scent is BEAST! (C.O. Bigelow Barber/Elixer Red for you fellas looking for a new scent...its a panty dropper for sho)  Oh man, oh man, oh man...if that was all he did for me that night it would've been more than enough...but he didn't stop there.  He lead me to our bathroom that was lit with candles only.  My bathtub was filled with this new Bath and Body works bubble bath and rose petals.  He told me to relax and play the CD he made for me while he finished dinner.  *grin*  I relaxed in my still very hot tub and pushed play.  I relaxed the the sounds of John Coltrane's "In a Sentimental mood."

Fabulous!

When I was done my medium-well steak was already set out for me along with a plate full of spagetti (Tres romantical! lol).  I saw this fully bloomed and absolutely gorgeous rose and surprises right next to me as I ate.  Dinner was delicious. He apologized for the whole steak and spagetti mix...but I assured him it was perfect because he knew they were of my favorites.  He let me open my presents after dinner...(two pieces of adorable clothing he thought I would like) and then we settled in and watched my favoritest movie of all time...

The Godfather.

lol...I know it sounds funny...but for all the effort and work and thought he put into it...it was enough to make me well up with pride, gratitude and tears because its the little things that make being with him worth it.  Coltrane...ONE rose...and steak...he's amazing...and he lets me know that even though it doesn't seem like it sometimes...he listens...he knows the little things that matter to me.  Bane has been the absolute best thing that's ever happened to me...and I couldn't ask for anything more.

And that was my romantical night...such is such.

One foot in front of the other...it will all work out. That's faith.

These past couple weeks have been hectic.  Crazy even...So much is happened so I'll try to condense it to the thoughts in my jumbled brain.

Recently, I went a little shop happy getting things I NEED and a few things I don't. (Causing a huge dent in my bank account I thought I could live with)  I bought myself a new purse and some much deserved clothes.  I got myself a new girly haircut and I wore a dress to work the other day. 



I've decided take more steps to look like the woman I know I can be.  Being more of BANE's woman rather than his androgenous partner.  My mommy gave me a target gift card for $25 dollars for my birthday and I used it to buy some make up brushes  I heard they were better than MAC.  And I miss wearing make-up. 

And all this is hella girly for me...but in the end...its paying off royally.  In my small effort to do these things...Bane has been a little more attentive and very forethcoming with the compliments.  Which my Aries ego LOVES LOVES LOVES.  A lot more loving glances, a lot more light touches here and there and holding hands...alot more special kisses for no reason...physcial adoration of my "assests"...and there's no need for me to stress the rest (which is better than fantastical lately, haha).  I'm doing better self-esteem wise and I've been feeling very pretty lately.



I just wish I could have bangin eyebrows.

Other than that there has been tons I've wanted to blog about but just never seemed to have the time to...I will this weekend though.  I've wanted to blog about my awesometastical experience when I did a sweat a few weeks ago.  Or the hella soul soothing family day at King's Dominion that was kick ass.  Or the true colors concert that my girl Lisa Lisa (who has a sexy new haircut) took me too.  Cyndi Lauper WAS FANTASIC!!!!!!!!  So was BETH DITTO.  I'm so in love with Beth DITTO....So much so that I will show you exactly how fat I am.


I love her!  And again..the concert was off the hook cuz my girl Margaret Cho killed.  Such is such of life.

These days...well today actually I am gearing up to drive 20 hours straight to Oklahoma just for one day with my WHOLE Okie Fam.  They get to meet my baby loverface and I get to be "home" for a few seconds.  That's going to be spectacular.  I can't wait.  I wish I could spend a few hours in Graceland since we're crusin through Memphis but I'll make Bane promise we'll go back.  I'm picking my daddy up after work and I'm getting off @ 2:30 to meet Bane at the metro.  I want to leave as soon a possible because the sooner we leave..the faster we'll get there and the sooner we get there...the more time I have to spend with my grammy and grampa. 

I love them.

So wish me luck, kittens.  A couple hours ago I didn't have funding for this trip but that's what faith is about...knowing without a doubt that if I put my mind to something it will work out..and I already know it has...I have the funding and the universe, Maheo or whatever you want to call it...has already taken care of me.  For some reason, I have JUST enough money in the bank to cover it.  How that happened...who knows...but I'm thankful. (Super thankful because that means hella SONICS eatin, yo!)  hahaha....

Such is such.