Well here I am pismo beach! and all the clams I can eat... Nah not really. I'm just living life and I am finally back in Washington DC from a looooong and drawn out trip. And pictures to prove it! Since I've been home I've done jury duty, gotten my bride's maid dress, watched my nephew, and that's about it. I'll finally have another birthday soon. *winces* I can hardly wait. I don't know why I feel like 23 is so old. I know in reality it's not but it just "feels" that way. Y'know? Oh well, someday I'll get over it. I am down to one ciggie every couple days so I'm doing good on that. I'm taking meds for my depression. And It's comming along nicely I must say...

I've lost like 5 pounds so far so I got to hop to it if I want to lose at least 10 more before the wedding. And that's a whole other thing....It's comming soon. Scary...but fun. More laters. I'm finally getting my computer hooked up at home so I don't have to use my sisters anymore. So I'll write all about my adventures when I get the time. l8er.

Dang, I can never find the time to write in these things...but here I am another NEW year. I've been traveling way too much in the past couple months. I have even found closure with my former significant other and still friends with another. What the hell am I doing? I don't know but for know I'm living it up in Idaho trying to make sense of it all still. Hopefully I'll get some time soon to get it all straight. For now...my resolutions are as follows. Quit smoking (so much), Gradually stop drinking, get over being bitter, lose 20 lbs. this year. Smile more. and STOP TAKING LIFE SO SERIOUSLY! Peace.

Once again...Starting all over again. Here I am, a little worse then the way I was about a year ago. Left here with one more love gone bad. Left here with a terrible first year of school. Left here with a broken heart and a brand new spirit. And all the tears and sleepless nights to prove it.

I sit here now ready to tell myself the story of what happened last year so that I may find out what went wrong and fix it. And of all the things that went wrong within the past year, I'm still trying to move on. I now know that I am finally ready to do so. I'm finally ready to get over the past months and start a new path. But that's all I'm willing to admit for now. The whole story will come to light sooner or later. Just when the time is right. So for now I leave with this in mind. I am a beautiful woman and I am worthy of love and to be loved. And no one can take that away but me. Peace for now. Spring