I just love this time of year! Spring TIME!
Tuesday, April 5
I miss my self-worshipping days...
I've let my self slip ALOT in the past couple months. Not only have I gained like 10 lbs but I don't even try to put make up on, even when I go out! WTF My hair is uninspiring to say the least. I'm still on the cusp of growing it out or getting another cute short cut. But then again...for some reason it's been put in my head that I am now officially "fat". *gag* I don't feel like it but crap I'm not gonna go around and be all emporer's new clothes if I have a fat head. Which I guess just means to me I need start buckling down and quit with the trill excuses not to fucking get out and run. I haven't ran in forevers. Something. I guess I just miss the excitement of putting on make-up and taking pictures of myself. Just to say damn I'm cute. I didn't care if anyone else thought so...I did. Bleh..something.
Hahahaha...I swear I conjur the most retarded music on my launchcast jootbox...hahaha...random songs that I need to get me out of my rut.
I get it Michael...I'm Bad.
LMAO...Get over myself, like whoa.
Hahahaha...I swear I conjur the most retarded music on my launchcast jootbox...hahaha...random songs that I need to get me out of my rut.
I get it Michael...I'm Bad.
LMAO...Get over myself, like whoa.
Monday, April 4
My thoughts on Marriage...(too early in the morning)
A question was posed in the Native Pride forum on what marriage means to me and how I would define it. Someone already said it was more about commitment than love and to a certain extent I agree...so here was my response:
I agree with Malynda when they say it's more about commitment than love. Although, I wouldn't being getting married if I didn't truely love the person I'm with. For me getting married isn't about the benefits or a legal name change, it's about promising our lives to each other before Maheo, our families and the people we love that we'll put each other first and stay committed to one another. It's a day to celebrate that commitment to each other and a time for our families to meet and become one. Its the point and time where families bless the two beings that have came before them, promised to have each other's best interest at heart and for them to either agree or disagree it's a good match. In any event, I don't need a piece of paper to tell me that I'm going to be with someone for the rest of my life. I just want the opportunity to promise before my family and his that this is the only person that I want in my life, to raise my kids (or not if you don't want any), who knows without a shadow of a doubt I want my plug pulled, that I trust will have OUR (and OUR family/future family's) best interest at heart above his own and I inturn will do the same.
Marriage isn't for everyone. Some people think they need marriage to complete them as a human. Some will never get married if only for the simple fact is that they don't need to or want to and that's great. Marriage isn't necessary for everyone but if you choose to do it don't do it cause it sounds good or seems like the right thing to do. Do it cause it's important to you and it means something to you and you're ready to put your integrity on the line.
Marriage is everyone's right and until it's legal for everyone, it's a taken for granted priviledge that we should take seriously or not do at all.
My cheap two cents.
I agree with Malynda when they say it's more about commitment than love. Although, I wouldn't being getting married if I didn't truely love the person I'm with. For me getting married isn't about the benefits or a legal name change, it's about promising our lives to each other before Maheo, our families and the people we love that we'll put each other first and stay committed to one another. It's a day to celebrate that commitment to each other and a time for our families to meet and become one. Its the point and time where families bless the two beings that have came before them, promised to have each other's best interest at heart and for them to either agree or disagree it's a good match. In any event, I don't need a piece of paper to tell me that I'm going to be with someone for the rest of my life. I just want the opportunity to promise before my family and his that this is the only person that I want in my life, to raise my kids (or not if you don't want any), who knows without a shadow of a doubt I want my plug pulled, that I trust will have OUR (and OUR family/future family's) best interest at heart above his own and I inturn will do the same.
Marriage isn't for everyone. Some people think they need marriage to complete them as a human. Some will never get married if only for the simple fact is that they don't need to or want to and that's great. Marriage isn't necessary for everyone but if you choose to do it don't do it cause it sounds good or seems like the right thing to do. Do it cause it's important to you and it means something to you and you're ready to put your integrity on the line.
Marriage is everyone's right and until it's legal for everyone, it's a taken for granted priviledge that we should take seriously or not do at all.
My cheap two cents.
Friday, April 1
How ghey is ghey...
My friends begged me and Leslie to take this shot. We got like $5 and free shots to do it...hahaha...suckers.
________________________
For my love who I just left at the airport:
My love, My life. I can't express how much this week has meant to me. It hasn't really sunk in yet that you're probably waiting on the runway right now and that soon you'll be about 2,000 miles from the where our heads awoke just hours ago. And yeah moment by moment it does get a little harder, but you're always with me in whatever I do. And I miss you like crazy right now even though I can't change this ghey Celine Dion song playing (my heart will go on) on my launchcast, I suppose it's perfect for the moment. Jason I love you. You are the best and you are mine. As much as I wanna think the neurotic thoughts about us I can't. I deserve you and we belong together. What's meant to be will always be and soon enough we'll be the family we're meant to be. Time doesn't go slow enough when we're together or fast enough when we're apart. Just know that I love you. That's all that matters. And you suck cause you didn't give me my ring dammat. (But I understand why) *giggles* Kisses from me2u to share w/Abby.
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