That's the state of the world today...

Dude I'm on an elevated alert

Go me.

Yeyness, DC is on elevated alert. Someone wants to put a bomb in my neighborhood. Nice. At first I was really frightened. I felt like someone just punched me in the lung and I lost my breath for a second. Then I came back to reality. While I does make me think...it really doesn't change anything does it. I mean it's always a possiblity and always will be a possibility that terrorist are going to bomb my little city. And that's what I accepted when I came back here to be with my family. Knowing and being close to my family everyday is worth more to me than being anywhere else in the world. Seeing my neice get taller and taking my nephew to Orioles games is fucking money in the bank. That's food for my soul. Being neighbors with my dad and sharing our stories together. Making eachother laugh. Just being close in general is worth more to me than anyone could ever give me. And I won't give that up. I love my family. And so I very happily choose to go on with life. Nothing will change for me. I just pray that god keep me.

In other news, Life is still grand and I'm taking things day by day. My new apt. is RAD to the bone. I love it. My family is healthy and happy. And everythang is alright. Right on.

I'm comming back to the light side (blogspot). Myspace is wearing me out. (But I love it!) I have the hugest infatuation with this almost 21 year old guy from NY. He is such an effin cutie! I love it. He's great and makes me smile the biggest cheesiest smiles. *le sigh*

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Five things I'm greatful for today:

1. Costco and the crates of water.
2. My best friend getting a new car.
3. Maheo's blessings on me and my loved ones.
4. Free gum.
5. Money in the bank.

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As the time passes life moves forth...

These past couple days have been really weird for me. Fourth of July was fun but left a lot to be desired. Plus, it took a huge chunk of my bank account...*good times* During the days and times I'm not here on my blogger I've been spending them mostly on Myspace.com.

Now, despite what people may believe I do have a life. I'm just bored alot at work. I know in the past I have advocated greatly for Myspace but mainly because I like the connection...especially to those that don't have a blog or keep up with them. I like Myspace. I can be as retarded as I want to be and find more retards like me. Retards that like Star Trek TNG and like Hoobastank and Frank Sinatra at the same time. It's kewl like that. As I have expressed many times before this...It's teh awesome...

Back to the past couple of days...

So anyways, Tuesday I get back to my computer all siced for Myspace and I'm greeted with this email...

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Blush~*
Date: Jul 5, 2004 07:15 PM

Hello Spring....
I am sorry that i have to be the bearer of bad news.... I know that you knew my friend Evad....I just wanted to let you know that he passed away today... He cherished your friendship and it bought him great joy to meet you in this space..... Please say a prayer for him in hopes that his soul will find peace in heaven....

Blush~*
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I was like what the fuck?!? That's crazy! I was just chatting with him the other day! We were talking about what we wanted to be when we grew up and how we were going to become teachers and mentors for under priviledged kids and live on the rez and make a difference. Dude, we even talked about meeting cause we were so close to each other. I trusted him alot. Whenever my "mom" and my niece passed away he was one of the first to console me and to send me positive thoughts. He was a great writer and musician. He was brilliant! He was beautiful and he was sincere. My virtual diamond in the ruff.

He was truely one of my "friends" that I actually considered a friend. And then all ov a sudden one day here and then next day...Gone. Gone. As in no more beats of his heart, no more dorky convos on the net. No more words of wisdom by Jeff Buckly. No more songs written for the women in his life. Just no more period. I haven't had someone just die on me hours after we conversed since my Grandpa n 92'. All of it was way too surreal for words. Having never met the guy I was very surprised to actually find myself sad and mourning this person. I was genuiely sad that he was gone and it scared me to think of and constantly be reminded that life is all too short. You never know if a simple jump in the lake will take your last breath. If even though it be a silly thought that you might actually die just like your idol... Just that morning before he had posted a picture of Marlon Brando and his last quote was so fortelling that it is embedded in my mind. "Death makes Angels of us all, and gives us wings..." To see that...and to have that be the last thing I see....????? There are no words or explanations for it. Everything about the way I knew him, the way he touched me and the way he died was so surreal.

Anyways, I suppose this beautifully concludes the string of threes in my life. My mom in May, My niece in June, and now a truely dear friend in July. ;0) I don't know whethere to be happy or sad at this point. I suppose a little of both. At any rate, I am in good spirits. I do shed tears from time to time but only cause these were all great people, who served a greater purpose than themselves and who I will always love, cherish, and remember.

REST IN PEACE...My GOOD FRIEND...MY LOVE...DAVID LAWS...

Your dash did mean something...

No, really, where have I been?

Man, it's been a while. Where have i been? Heck I dunno. Moving into my new place that's where....It's teh awesome!

*sigh* Can I just tell you how awesome it is to have my own place? It is awesome. Home is where the heart is and this is my home. *sigh* I need to put crap on the walls, a table or some furniture period would be good. But otherwise...it's all gravy. All on Friday! Yeah! I can't freakin wait!